sometimes i really wonder whether having many friends is worth it. looking perspectively, not all would become close friends and not all will stay in contact till....forever?

being a skeptic, i looked at people who deleted me in my msn list. well, the result was far from surprising. some of them whom i had built a rapport with.... ahh well, not that important really. i'm just happy with what i have and that's not going to change anything.

anyway, which comes to my topic of the day. evolution.

i've been always fascinated by science; watched countless documentaries ranging from rocket science, astrostudies and right down to the very barebones in human genetics. but well, maybe i should get into a science major in Uni. have you ever wondered how far is 1 light year? search on it, its quite interesting.

its been raining for days on end now. sometimes i do really hate it but other times i'm really thankful for. like for example if i'm late for class, i would really hate to blame myself. raining season should end soon maybe in about a month's time. after that, it would be quite cool weather, and then comes in the hot season.

on friday, i watched The Last Samurai on the HBO channel. it was a relatively nice show, although i would prefer it to be longer. but in other words, it was simply just awesome. one of the best shows. i didn't manage to catch it when it had its cinema debut 2 years ago. so that explains...... oh in any case, i've also been watching Ichigo Mashimaro!!! Loli show, cute girls doing cute things. its pretty witty with a mixed sense of humour. kids stuff are sometimes the best things in the world eh? Bleach is getting more fans i suppose, with slightly just over 2000 downloads.

since thursday afternoon, its been TV, TV and more TV. mid term holidays!!!!! they're always the nicest since 7 weeks holidays are just too boring if i didn't find a job. i want to find a new wallet also because my cards inside are like breaking to bits. my debit card broke!!! urgh!! like wtf. and my IC too. one of the edges chipped off. goddammit. wtf. oh well.

oh ah uhm, tomorrow's my bloggie's 2nd birthday.

omedeto tanjobi!!!!!

kombanwa!!!~

today is the last day for term tests. PAWN. pawn-ED.

after the paper, raymond,andy and myself went to town area to go...well sightseeing i guess. we took the 23 bus to Sim Lim Square but before we were able to reach our destination, it rained heavily. we were like 'what the heck?!'. so we waited out until the rain dampered a bit and we dashed off to the building. walked around a bit, then went to raffles place to eat with andy's girlfriend. she had work later so it was the 3 of is again after lunch.

walked around chinasquare. but we joked alot..and i mean alot!!!~ lame jokes. then walked to Liang Court near Clarke Quay. and i stress on the word WALK. walked around again at Kinokuniya and Audio House. then we walked to Funan IT Mall. walked again. after that we got so tired, that we went down to the food court below to sit for nearly 2 hours. =P

i took the MRT back to Tampines. then got on the bus to go home.

so i guess i'm too tired to stay up late. i'll just have a nice 16 hour hibernation instead.

by the way, no jap class for next 2 weeks coz of holidays. damn. just when i was about to understand jap music. hahahah. well, i still need to revise but hopefully i can finish up PAWN and MAPD projects on time. gambatte ne!!~

what else.....oh yeah i think i need to exercise a bit because i think i've put on weight. maybe going for a run would be good.

mata ashita. or maybe asatte.

asoko desu ne? mosukoshi desu yo gambari mashou!!~

welcome to term test week ladies and gents. i promise you this would be hard, fast but efficiently painful and flawless. first up MAPD, second comes MSDE while third goes to MCSD and last but not least PAWN. although reports came in last saturday there was Water Technology.

recently, i watched this documentary about the development of human babies while in their pre-born state. 6 weeks after fertilization takes place, the gender of the foetus would already be known. nice~ not surprisingly, it doesn't breathe while inside the uterus, instead it takes in the liquid surrounding it and through the umbilical cord. also testosterone and oestrogen are present in both males and females alike. well, i guess i got to read up more on these kind of stuff. they're fascinating!

maybe i shall take up a doctorate in Uni. i always had interest in science and technology. double honours doesn't sound too bad either. or maybe PhD ---> Poly halfway Dropout.

ah so anyway, i changed my layout. cool, clean and nice~ and well since nobody(almost really...) tags my tagboard, its rather pointless of putting one.

well, time to study. MCSD must get A. PAWN must get A.

oh oh! did you know? Monaco has been producing some of the most beautiful princesses throughout the past few decades. i read that in a New Paper article in November. and they are really beautiful and they are ROYALTY. mind you. nice la~ maybe i'll marry 1 of them. just 1. sugoi zaini-san wa!!!!!! ii desu ne.......

hai! benkyoo shimasu hajime mashou?

sa yo na ra!!!

word of the day, zaogeng.

school today was terrible. i was completely distraught with tiredness looming. i reached home at 4pm. too tired to even change clothes. but i had time to watch S.W.A.T on HBO.hahah!!~

i did a bit of MCSD, my tree structure only and a bit of the proposal. tables still need to be done and consolidated tree structure and storyboard design. then just now PAWN lecture, satu bende pon tak masuk otak. my brain was like literally in off mode.

well basically i did nothing for today. in short. i don't know why today i seem so tired.

bye dudes.

a few days back i did a very interesting statistical count. i was at tampines interchange at around 8.30pm. this is what i did: everytime a person passed through this imaginary line, i would look at the colour of their hair. for 30 minutes, since i was REALLY waiting. i concluded that for every 10 people that walked past that day, a mean of 3 person had their hair dyed. from part-blonde,copper-brown to light blonde. interesting.~

well, yesterday, i went to school to finish up on MSDE project with andy,miguel,raymond and myself. after about 1pm, we went off to tampines central to walk around. i would almost swear that was the most fun times. except victor who went off for cycling in Pulau Ubin. almost.

i bought a miniature sword. merely resembling a katana. guess what, its ichigo's bankai of zangetsu. TENSA ZANGETSU. also i bought 1 of Ichigo Mashimaro's characters. i got Matsuri-chan though i was hoping to get Chika-chan or Nobue onee-san. it was friggin 3 dollars!!! anyway, i was happy.

today, i had japanese class. in my honest opinion.... i learned a lot of things.hahahahah. i'm beginning to undestand and write in japanese. but........writing in characters is just a pain in the neck!!! nevermind hiragana.....katakana....kanji is the worst!!! its been only like what.? 5 weeks i've been exposed in writing characters. but i'm keeping up with it.

Murphy's Law: What can go wrong, will go wrong.

well then, after the class i went to tampines interchange to hand andy my thumbdrive. his was a goner. afterward i rode the train to Orchard, to Hyatt to take back my smart shoes for CMSK interview this coming Wednesday. i wanted to take the bus back to tampines so i walked a bit down lucky plaza to the stop. i missed the bus!!! just because some joker in front of me was walking really slowly. at first i was contented because there was a traffic jam. then it sped up. i was like 'dammit, dammit dammmmit!!~' i got to the stop and the bus left. after which i said, 'goddammit~' well,shit happens so i waited for the next bus.

i dropped off at tampines interchange and took 28 home.

anyway, during my little excursion down Orchard, it was nice la~~ the kind of environment that would stimulate my thinking. i had many ideas to blog,but i've forgotten them. oh well. too bad.

oh yes! i've been to friendster recently. it had changed a lot since i signed up. i can't believe how many testimonials i owe my friends. maybe 80+? i'll write when i have time which isn't anytime soon. term test is coming and i ain't got a clue of what PAWN is teaching. and which reminds me i need to print my notes for the whole entire term! ahh well...that's it i guess. i gotta do my MCSD storyboard and tree structure.

sa yo na ra!!~

uhmmm...ahhhh.....well.....i don't know ah....

hisashiburi!!!! been like 2 weeks since i updated.well, i would start with last thursday, 24th november where Izzah, Aishah,Tara and Hafizah treated me to lunch at pizza hut. well, it was super fun!~ but i had to skip my lectures and tutorial which was quite okay. hahah. firstly i was like....okaayyyy, here i am with 4 girls.....its not like its something wrong right....well anyway thanks guys for the lunch...or rather girls? heheh.

okay then...zooming past friday, saturday i went to school to do MSDE project but Miguel turned up late...hahahahaha...in the end we ended up in the library discussing...then we went to Burger King for lunch. right after my aunt called to ask whether i wanted to follow her and my cousins go Suntec City. so yeah, i went but it wasn't wasted....it was rather interesting. well.....we went to mothercare....because my wife would be giving birth soon........hahahahahahahah!! well..no...just joking...........okay, i know its not funny. but soon 'kay....soon.

sunday came and i had japanese class in the morning. it was super interesting. we leart how to tell the storey's of a building as well as to hone our skills in vocabulary. i already know how to read hiragana characters but not kanji. katakana-wise i'm okay.

okay, so after that lesson, i went to meet 'anujot tai'cho' aka boss, at expo for SITEX 2005. we walked around the halls while waiting for raymond. i think we could've easily walked around for 5 times round it!!! it was that long....and we were like...'where's Raymond?? he's on his way, OK..' then we were like looking desperately for a bag to put our pamphlets in but diappointingly. we saw quite a number of people toting around AMD and HP bags though.

so when Raymond finally came, andy and me were like. oh crap, we're tired. walked around some more. but the exposition was rather interesting. cool gadgets, hot prices and even hotter models. oh and did i tell you that i won a World Cyber Games 2005 T-shirt? i got it for beating Singapore's Silver Medalist in WCG in Dead or Alive on the Xbox. the thing is that its only 3 rounds i won 1 and him 2. he whooped my character playing with 1 hand!!! i was like 'shit!shit!shit!shit! i'm losing!!!!!' and he was like cool. heh. so much for DoA. so after a bit of waiting i went home.

skipping monday,tuesday, and thursday this week. private and confidential.

wednesday. i met hanisah in TP. said she had a buddy program for 1 week. experiencing poly life. so i met her at the bus stop. i was like....'ey, you're still short'. we waited for her friend. ain was it? yea. then instead of going home i followed them to TM since i thought it was going to be short and i had free time. so went around Tampines Mall and i treated them inculding me, hanisah and ain to choc covered marshmellows from a shop outside Charles and Keith i think. $5. then...went to U2, hanisah had a clothes change because she said it was uncomfortable in that shirt. then.........i don't know why suddenly the place Bugis was said. hahahahah. then they were like,' zaini, ikut kiter ar pergi bugis.' initially i wanted to refuse because it was getting late and i was tired. but persuade persuade persuade, i followed. walked around Bugis, wanted to go Suntec but tired already, cannot walk far. then stopped at a Sony Roadshow and hanisah was like, 'zaini zaini!, buy for me this for my birthday can? i will be super nice to you for 1 year.' well, if it was as cheap as the choc marshies its fine, but this was like 250 times the price? guess. ain and hanisah were like saying, 'hint hint' urrgghh..hahaha.
so on the way back ain said something about condoms and she said 'stay virgin as long as you possibly can...' or something like that. then i replied 'i'll try my best', LOOKED AT HANISAH AND SAID 'HINT, HINT....'. take it back!!!hahahahahah!!!!!~ (do you guys get it? no? then read again.)
then i went home.

today. TP had a seminar on further education in universities locally. NUS was first followed by SMU and NTU and lastly was UniSIM. it was interesting. well, it helped me have a broader view of the current perspective of education in Singapore. NUS was straight to its point, helping us to achieve academic excellence through world-class education. SMU had a rather interesting approach, it cultivates all-rounder students. i liked SMU because its campus is right smack in the middle of City Hall and Dhoby Ghaut. NTU i am neutral about it. i have mixed thoughts about NTU. i didn't go to UniSIM though.

well, i think that's about it for my entry. foremostly i would like to thank my right hand for typing this entry solo. oh yeah, i'll be helping out as a cameraman or videographer for tomorrow's Parent's Seminar.

mata ashita.

konbanwa!!~

okay the last time i updated was like last week monday. its not that i'm lazy or anything but i guess its because no one actually or a few rather reads. but then again i'm writing only because i want to express my thoughts. ahh well~ lets begin....

i'll start with yesterday. lecture starts at 9am. i woke up at 9am went back to sleep until 11am. came to school at 12.30pm just late for MCSD tutorial. eh~ i was still present. thanks sir! hahah!but well it was raining.so heavily at that.

oh and then i had MAPD lecture which was the same as monday's. sigh. then waited till 4pm for Water Technology tutorial. WTech tutorial is soo fun!!! hahah. i think because i like to make jokes and the tutor was a joker himself. yeah!!!~ i think i'm going to love WTech speaking of which i have a quiz tomorrow....and i have not yet studied for it. okay. maybe i should after this. okay. or maybe tomorrow. k...whatever.

anyway, after the lecture at 7pm i waited for lemuel to watch Harry Potter and The Goblet of Fire, which was nice, and which i watched it twice already. was it le Fleur? pretty...too pretty...and very pretty. and Hermione and what's the name of that chinese girl again?i forgot.
among all the series of Harry Potter movies, i actually like the Chamber of Secrets the most, honestly.

the movie ended at 1am i think. me,lemuel,kenneth and kian wei...

and today, i came 20 minutes late for PAWN lab. oh well...then i had lessons all the way till 3pm. cmsk2 being the last subject for the day. had an MSDE project meeting. then i went back home straight. then i watched TV all day.

a lot of things on my mind. i think i need to start jotting down what i'm thinking. or rather what i think needs my attention. heh. not old or anything but my mind is just stretched a bit.

i think i'm going to sleep or whatever. its still early.

sa yo na ra!

i would like to continue on the last post..

thanks to those who wished me past 1:00am just now,
my aunts, Izzah, Nazie, Hafizah, Adliah, Marlina, Miguel, Victor, Andy, Kenneth, Izyan, Kak Huda, McDonalds, Syafizah, my MWC course Year 1 freshies (Mei Ling and company and i take it as class C128), Flannery, Minako from Japan...

that's it. wishes closes in 24 minutes because now its 11:36pm
and this time i also believe i included everyone. from last post to this current post, again i would like to thank all my friends for wishing me.

as the saying goes,... "it is important to have friends, but only some will stay true."

well, today was just okay i guess... Marlina told me i looked rather sad today. which was true. i was expecting something from someone. saddened me quite a bit. but, hey life ain't beautiful! and that's what i like about myself. like i told Amanda, it keeps me from staying in 1 spot, rather it pushes me forward. life ain't perfect but at least i still have 'balls' and 'guts' to live it.

so there. my 18th birthday post. see you all around.

i'm going to bed. oyasumi. mata-ne.

happy birthday to me!

officially 18 years old as of 00:00am on 14th of November 2005.

first of all i would like to thank all wishers, my cuzz Hizam, YaYa, Huda, Hanisah, Sohaila, Lemuel, Raymond, Jia Yi(same birthday as me!!), Amanda from China, Clare from China, Yoko from Japan, May a.k.a mayiscute from Ghana/HK, Izumi from Japan, Risa from Japan...

i don't believe i left out anyone...the rest? well, wait and see. because to the world, its just another monday, to me, its 1 year older.

well, nothing much to say, last thursday i had my dinner at Sakae Sushi. LOL. it was a nice experience and i'm still a n00b so i got OWNED by the food there. i ate using chopsticks which i am fairly dexterous in using. then the rest wanted to watch a movie, i went home.

friday i had school, and 5 hours of it is enough to kill you. 2 hours of lab and 2 hours of tutorial and 1 hour of lecture. bothersome~

saturday i went out to all my relatives house for Hari Raya festivities, which was also tiring. maybe i'll upload some pics in my photo album.

then sunday i had japanese class in the morning from 10am - 12.30pm then i stayed home all the way.

but it has come to my attention that i have been coughing rather 'frivolously'. suddenly my throat starts to itch and i would start coughing. oh well, perhaps i should cut down on ice water which i started a few days ago. lately everyone's falling sick. and i'm no exception. eh wait! what was that supposed to mean?! LoL.

yesterday...or on saturday night/sunday morning, i talked a bit to huda and yAyA. and it ended up me being 'multi-racialled' by huda...LOL!! i wanted just malay songs and she gave me chinese songs,hindi and even a russian song. but well...i have to thank her for that. =P
in return i gave her a french song and some japanese songs plus some instrumentals.

so then, maybe i'll just go to sleep. i purposely waited 1 hour after 00:00am. oh well....see you guys around.

mata-ne. oyasumi.

EY! HOW DO YOU SAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN JAPANESE?!
maybe i'll ask Kuriyama-sensei next week.

Timetable's out!!!

i'll be taking Mobile Applications Development(MAPD), Mobile Commerce Systems & Development(MCSD), Mobile System Design & Environment(MSDE), Personal Area Wireless Networking(PAWN), Communications Skills 2(CMSK2), APEL 3, and Water Technology(WTech) as my Cross-Disciplinary Subject. so total would be 26 Credit Units. i'm now contemplating whether i should drop Water Technology to take up Japanese Language as my CDS instead.i have 3 days to decide. if i take up Water Technology, i would be in the same class as my friends but i if i take up Japanese Language i would be the same class as Lemuel, if not tentative. tentative meaning whether i could get in Lemuel's class is another problem.

well, today's afternoon was nice! but too bad i had to spend it at home. oh well...and it's Hari Raya too. last year it fell on my 17th birthday!!~ how nice. this year, it fell on Ben's birthday.

these few days, i've been chatting with Izumi. she's a nice person, really! she comes all the way from Japan. just now i showed her some pictures of the city of Singapore. well, i had a pretty miserable collection but i do have great shots of it while on a cable car to Sentosa last year.

school's out next monday. 7 weeks of semester holiday.gone! ahhh!!! if only i worked earlier, i might have a better looking salary at the end of 2 months.but anyway, i got to know a lot of people from around the world, that's nice. well, i'll write more later in the day i guess.

but before i go, here's a lame riddle. ready?

What has 1 leg and 3 eyes but only opens 1 at a time?

answer??below....










A TRAFFIC LIGHT.
ok lame i know. bye!!!

hello.

the visitor counter ain't working, and the tag board is pretty messed up, but i'll have it fixed most probably within next week or this week.

anyway, i was talking to huda the other day, i said, "japanese girls are cute don't you agree?" not that i detest local girls or anything, among malay girls, they're getting more horrible in terms of their distasteful behaviour. wearing thick make-ups? yucks! i don't mind light make-ups but too much of it makes one looks sickly. then again, i have nothing against these kind of things. so much so i went to Geylang Serai the other week with my aunt. 1 word, HUMID! i hated that feeling. been there for years, nothing new. as for my eyes, i think they were shouting for help. 'boys' or 'men' dressed in outrageous outfits with their 'minahs'. ahhh...nothing against that either. its their problem.

but in my honest opinion, i think the malay society here is getting way out of its league. as a malay myself, i am not being biased in any way or any sort. *READ THAT! THAT'S MY DISCLAIMER FOR THOSE WHO CAN READ*

i mean, just need 1 look and you can tell. just how demised these people are. i haven't heard any news from MUIS since like for a few months except if there's any major achievements in malay society. other than that, that's it. transparency they say. what disappointment. seriously.

i'm not implying that other societies are perfect either. its just that i feel that the Malays can do as well as other races. for example, i don't see many Malays actively involve themselves in activities that require teamwork. all i see are most of them trying their best trying to get donations in par with this 'Ramadhan' month. with commissions promised for every dollar they rake in, in my very honest opinion, it defeats the purpose of charity. i openly defy not to donate to charities since the NKF "6 months peanut bonus" incident. and i quoted that. some people might even go to a great length of telling me, "don't you want to help these poor people?" in my very very honest opinion, if you live in Singapore and you have a roof over your head and have meals once/twice a day that's not called poor. and yet, they have the audacity to purge me of my money. i will tell them with a straight face to fuck off. really.

anyway, its Hari Raya Aidilfitri in 2 days, today and tomorrow. starts on Thursday and effectively on for 1 month/30 days. but festivities are only 'valid' up to 2 weeks. why i say that? because after 2 weeks, many people consider it to be.....over....or whatever. its kind of superfluous if you think about it. sure, some people wouldn't think of it as overdoing it because it only happens annually. but to me, every year is the same, nothing interesting. its becoming an annual routine kind of thing. well, perhaps maybe if it happens bi-annually maybe i'll learn to treasure it more. =D

"Et le courant passe, j'ai en moi l'audace
Du champs magnetique, et ca c'est magnifique!"

just now, Izumi-san was singing to me, she has the nicest voice that i ever heard over phone. =D
and i know it isn't me to just sing to anyone except to myself in the bathroom. but 2 days ago i sang to her in return. hahahahaha. yeah!!~ oh by the way, she's not the izumi that i have in my links. take note. =)

okay i'll end here. good night everyone reading my entry if there are. hahaha. okay. i'll go now....

yes, i'm going already.......


yeah, i'm logging off soon....



okay okay i'm going........



right....good night....

ohaiyo gozaimasu!!!

what in the blazes i'm blogging 2:55am for?!?!!! i can't sleep.wahahahah. its been like this since last sunday after work. after i reach home at 12:20am, i would hang out in cyberspace. =D
then i would stay up till 4am and eat a bit then about 6.30am i will sleep through 1pm. then i would be in front of my laptop till about 4.30pm if i have work at 6pm. life's hard i know but the harder we work for it, the more meaningful it will become?

"Shit guys, ze mizziles are coming!! fire our shit!!!"

oh people people..... the tag board is under construction. goddamn scripts. its got undefined window. server side problem. i think. and i think its because i have 3 scripts running simultaneously.

okay, so i'm back at Grand Club, as a waiter not a butler. its tough.....but hey, that's work for ya!!oh well...i usually finish at 11pm then i would go straight home...
and i just finished watching Ghost In The Shell: Stand Alone Complex 2nd Gig for 1 hour and Chobits..ahahaha..darm funny...i got nothing to do...after about sweating for half hour just now fixing my tv cable to get cable channels.

and by the way, my voice is back yeah!!!~ no more sore throat at night..heheh...now i can sing to Izumi.hahahah. -_-"

i guess i better take a bath now,i wanna sleep soon.

oyasumi.

work's start at 5pm. i have to be there by 4.50pm. back in working in Hyatt. not much have changed though. i did not sleep the whole night yesterday, because i was talking to a Japanese singer. really!!!.. well actually...she is a very good singer..in my opinion. her name is... Izumi!!! =D

her voice is nice lah!!~ so sweet and cute.

well..actually that is what i wanted to say.. =D ...
but i did not talk very much during the past 2 days. its because my throat always sucked at night. kind of like part-time sore throat. maybe because i drink too much cold water when breaking fast. its crappy lah~

well..i think i better get ready soon.

sayonara!!!!!!!!! =D

konnichiwa!!!!

ah well, i think i improved my japanese a bit. only a bit.

the fasting's month started already?so fast. time flies when i'm having fun, too much fun. and guess what, i still ain't got a job yet. well, whatever. school's opening in about 3 weeks time and i don't see the point of working anymore. lesson learnt, never follow anyone.

the past week i've spent most of my time at lemuel's condo. which was fun. our objective is to chill out and have fun. and i've been 'skyping' as well!! i made friends from Poland, United Kingdom, Japan, China, Korea and even Lithuania. that's nice~ =)

i've not been updating for the past 2 weeks. so this might be good to keep myself occupied. anyways, i've been having weird dreams lately. just last 2 weeks i dreamt of making love to a girl and yesterday night too. seriously, give me a break, why not i dream of becoming rich for a change eh?heheh. but they're just dreams.

recently, i've taken some interests in stock markets. or playing shares. now this is where most people will advise, "don't play shares, you will get yourself burnt." honestly, to me, they are not risk-takers. taking risk doesn't necessarily mean that you will fail or definately will succeed. its a matter of taking risk that you are able to sustain. this is called taking smart risks. of course i studied the fundamentals of stock markets and how they work. they are the magic that can turn 1,000 dollars to 10,000 dollars overnight or vice versa.

life is just amazing, full of hope, disappointment and not forgetting the pleasure of wet dreams. hahahahahahahahaha!!!!

mata-ne. =)

konbanwa?

i haven't been blogging since like one week.oh well, goes to show how demised i am.heh.
anyway, i passed all my modules!!woohoo!!but....all i got were Cs and Ds. this is the worst. i have to really work hard because my GPA ain't going anywhere.

put studies aside, yesterday i had a hair cut.made it shorter.yey.sponsored by my auntie.hehehz
had it cut at tampines mart level 2 salon. well then i went home, which then i took out the Mai-HiME episodes. actually i already watched the first few episodes but gave up but since i had nothing to do really, i started back. it turned out that this is one of the best animes i have ever seen. storyline wise its very very entertaining. it keeps me guessing what's going to happen next which i really admire in any story.Mai is the protagonist in this story who unknowingly accepted her fate as a HiME. Highly-advanced Materializing Equipment. Mai-Hime [Dancing Princess]

over 10, i would rate it 9.5 . graphics looks great. background sounds are just perfect. touching story for those who wants to take a break from Gundam SEED series.

then and there. bye. sayonara. matane. oyasumi.

is it konnichiwa or konbanwa?

well considering its 1:55am. oh well..i felt like doing so might as well blog. i think no one reads though, but oh well, at least it gives me a place to say my thoughts. that's fine, no one has to read... =D

anyway, today i woke up at 3pm....because i slept at 4am that same day. chatted with Alice.LoL.
then i woke up, watched Anak Metro 2 repeat tele. i must say its quite an OK show but with lots of comedy. darm bloody gangsters.hah!....

so then at around 5pm i took a bath then i heated up some porridge cooked in the morning presumably to just about to eat 2 bowls of it, felt full then i stayed in my room the whole time. nothing much to do...so i SMSed my 1 and only sweetie!nurhanisah! -_-"

but halfway SMSing i had to do some cleaning. so i messaged her back later just now only to end up talking on the phone for like........2 hours? oh well...then she had to message or whatever, then because my throat was kinda not well today...so i put down the phone and surfed in cyberspace. not that i'm bored or anything, i want to just know more about stuff.

yah, then huda gave me this video, about a woman being possessed. really i'm not into these kind of stuff. not that it freaks me out or anything but.....c'mon...this is the 21st century. no pun intended huda.. hehe.. =)

so i guess i'll be either working at Popular bookstore or going back to Hyatt Singapore. i need the money. Its for scuba diving, PSP and a holiday cruise. total around 1,000 SGD so i guess need the sponsorship of my parents.hehz... but come to think of it, maybe i'll bring my sweetie for a cruise on Superstar Virgo...1,700 SGD for an oceanview room with balcony and jacuzzi ain't such a bad idea. but the bad thing is,..... i'm the one who gets to pay for it. -_-"""

well whatever.. life goes on...wonder if i can swim 200metres for the scuba course. bahh......i'll just have to keep on swimming.

so that's it i guess,i'm going to sleep!
oyasuminasai! >:)

konnichiwa!

today i woke up late.11am.supposed to meet lemuel at 10am going gym.somehow or rather my alarm didn't ring.its because simply i forgot to set it! so i didn't go obviously because i was too late. but anyhow i spent the afternoon going through forums and all. chatted with a few people and that's it.

i'm trying to get a job here so if anyone out there who has contacts and the job is reasonable enough not for me to go nuts, you are welcomed to contact me. looking for admin jobs if possible.

trying to get money so that i could import that white PSP. it looks too yummy and creamy kinda like cookies and cream. then in order for it not to get 'raped', i shall buy a protective cover to cover the screen and all. lemuel is getting 1 too although he has already the black one. i'm really keen on buying it. furthermore, other prospective items such as the Ipod Nano, Sony Ericsson K600i 3G phone and the upcoming Creative Zen Microphoto looks all too delicious. Ipod nano in black?darn. i was hoping for a white but i guess i'll take the white one if it has. i want everything white. white PSP,white Ipod Nano, white Creative Zen Microphoto. wow. fantastic. the problem is...... money.

a flu is the best ever way to spoil my day. and right now i'm having 1. Alice asked me along to have dinner but then because of flu, i had to refuse. oh well, guess have to live with this flu for a couple of hours. next day i should be fine then.

oh by the way! i learnt how to count 1 - 20 in japanese. hehz..

ichi
ni
san
yon
go
roku
shichi
hachi
kyu
jyu
jyu-ichi
jyu-ni
jyu-san
jyu-yon
jyu-go
jyu-roku
jyu-shichi
jyu-hachi
jyu-kyu
ni-jyu-ichi

well that's 1 - 20 for ya. basically its easy to count in japanese. just need to know how to count 1 - 10.

with that i shall end my entry.

sayonara.dewa mata.

hello.

this week i'm having exams. Computing Mathematics 1 on Monday, Mobile Database Systems on Tuesday, Wireless Technologies & Services on Wednesday, Mobile & Wireless Networking on Thursday and Wireless Application Development on Friday. All papers start at 2.30pm and ends at 5.30pm.

C Maths 1 was easy stuff. Mobile Database was average. Wireless Technologies & Services was killer. Mobile & Wireless Networking is going to be man-slaughter. Wireless Application Development is going to be the mother-of-all papers. What kind of destiny is this i wonder.

oh well, so lately i've been setting my sights on this mouth-watering ceramic white Sony Playstation Portable(PSP). On 15th September it would be released exclusively in Japan. I want to get an import on that. The last thing i want to see on that expensive machine is 'MADE IN CHINA' . seriously, what a rip-off.

and therefore i would like to conclude that this semester is a whole lot worst than last semester because of despicable projectmates which hand in not up to standard work. This is what separates A students. It just turns me off when I get unmotivated projectmates. It is an insult to my intelligence.

my thoughts for the day, its better to have hardworking projectmates knowing nothing rather than having projectmates that know nothing and who THINK they are FUCKING BIGSHOTS. dammit. i will have to choose my projectmates carefully in future especially since Final Year Project is drawing near.

i shall show you an intelligence gap that you could not overcome in a millenium of struggle.

hello.

been a while since updated.say 2 weeks? 1 week plus..oh by the way for your info, the previous entry was written by nurhanisah. dunno what she talking.but oh well, at least she doesn't crap too much.

so anyway last 3 weeks was jammed pack, full-packed with projects.come to school at 8am only to finish at 9pm.for 2 consecutive weeks.sheesh what a week, didn't have time to go out. ok so just now was the end of school semester and now having 1 week of study week then followed by 1 week of papers. i have 5 papers so each day 1. all the papers start at 2.30pm only to end at 5.30pm. darm.

so yesterday, i woke up and went to school to play football. since a long time since i put on my soccer boots. although i could perform much better, i did manage to bag a few goals.LoLz. my shooting degraded, my dribbling dropped a bit, my passing still the way it is, my running surprisingly better, stamina dropped a bit, acceleration still ok.

so anyways, then i went home to bathe, at around 3pm i went out to school back because got MDBS tutorial. then after that stayed to talk to mr yap with raymond. the rest all went home already. oh well..so i went home back. at 8.30pm i went out again with hadi,lemuel,ben,zhi hui,zhi da. xu yang came along with kenneth low and the other guy i duno the name..long time never see kenneth low.LoL.

then went to play LAN at around 10+pm finish at 11.45pm then go saffron.on the way there we saw 2 police cars driving like mad. and so we walked further on to see a dissolved gang fight presumably. saw an ambulance too. we reached saffron eventually then i got to go home coz i was really tired. darm could've stayed a bit longer. oh well..so i saw the 28 bus. and i was so friggin tired to chase. and i waited for the next. about 5 minutes later amanda walked past. she wanted to walk larr...so i accompanied her home since i stay quite near to her block. so we walk home.LoL.

reach her house then i continued walking home.damn tired seriously.i'm a bit dark now because of playing under intense sunlight.LoL. Alan was going red.haha!

so there.i shall end here.bye.

harlow!

well lets see.

Today is 14th august 2005.

hmmz. well as u can see this guy name ruzaini,

is so the very busy until he carnt update his blog.

so! he so called gave the task to me! hehx.

BUt!

the problem is i dunnoe wad to update.

nvm.

well lets start!

honestly!

i fine the blog kinda cute larh.

but fer a guy hu's turning 18 this yr..

its kinda weird tho.

Dunch u all agree?

hahax

trying to act cute izzit?

xxbluekxx

well..

wad else arh?

dunnoe wad to update anymore.

hahax.

maybe next time den!

Tata!

erk ouh yarh! hehe.. to the owner of the blog!

Sorry fer crapping!

good morning!!

here now, i'm going to write about yesterday's highlights.

oh so well,my day started out well,except that my internet connection was down. well then i went out to send my smallest sis to tuition at my aunt's house. i waited for a while then we went out to my aunt's new house. it was partially done with the construction. so then we headed to interchange or cash converter rather; to ask whether they would buy the antique painting at the new house;they refused. so we went to Tampines Mall because my aunt wanted to buy me a pair of slippers because she thought that my slippers was too.......ugly?heheh. we went looking for like 30 minutes? then still cannot find at Isetan.

then decided to go OP later but went to Best Denki at Century Square first. on the way there, something happened. while my aunts and my smaller sis and my cuzzins walked in front, at the kids section of Metro, i was the last of the pack, a girl i think around my age guided a remote control car around my path. ahakz.

so i stood there waiting and watching the little car to pass by my feet. obviously i looked up assuming it to be some kid. oh well, i saw this really charming girl. heh. when i looked up, she smile at me. of course obviously initially the most logical thing to do is to smile back. but i continued to walk past happily away. but then while i was going up in the escalator, i wanted to look at her again, but couldn't find her. probably moved off to other sections. oh well. charming smile though. kinda of like that makes me happy all day. but really, after that part i was really happy till now. (now you know why i update all of a sudden? hint*)

but anyways, after looking around best denki, my aunt bought a $300+ fridge and a $300+ washing machine. then!!we went down to OP shop to look at slippers!!!ahahah.but didn't buy any because we were late for dinner.

dinner we had a sakura the thai restaurant at downtown east. the food there, extremely violent!! i ate an eel unknowingly thinking it was some kind of fish. come to think of it, it was soooo mushy musshhyyy that i feel like puking thinking of it really. the other foodstuff were really great. almost on par with those 4-star hotels i suppose. i had to go home after that. it was a well-spent day i suppose.

oh by the way, on saturday i went to Tanjung Pinang at Bintan in Indonesia. i shall write it maybe during the night later. it was great.hehz....

so that's it folks. i'll close shop for now. nite.....

*sweetie...i'm sorry okie,i didn't mean those words i said to you. i was just angry.sorry.*

notice something different? how about lets say that my blog's just been given a fresh new look?

don't like it?then too bad.

well anyway,its amazing how i didn't manage to update for 2 whole months! not been that busy,its just that i'm lazy to update.been only occupied with projects,assignments and of course; games. been playing Battlefield 2 now. LAN gaming with lemuel,ben,hadi,zhi hui and zhi da is the BEST!!!wahaha.........

me: anti-tank and part-time attack chopper pilot and full-time tank driver
lemuel: spec ops and part-time commander
ben: medic and full-time squad leader and part-time transport chopper pilot
hadi: sniper and full-time aircraft pilot and part-time teamkiller. heh. ;)

together we are the almighty part-time best squad ECHO!!heh.

well, i think that's about it for now.
oh and by the way,thanks for waiting till my blog re-construction had finished. have a nice night.

as a child my parents used to bring me to Changi International Airport to go for a walk.Usually we would go with my cousins.and usually we would go to eat at swensens then go to the Viewing Gallery.as time passed,i grew with fascination of aeroplanes.it just fascinates me of how they flew.i would just stand at the railing for hours just to see the aeroplanes.big commercial airlines was 1 thing.being a small kid with big dreams was another.

in time,i realised.i knew that jet fighter pilots were dream careers that one could hope for.and so from now on,i will strive my very best to achieve that dream career.as a fighter pilot in the Republic of Singapore Air Force.i am prepared to make whatever decision that will ultimately help me achieve my ambition.

now listening to Broken Wings by Tomoko Tane.

one who does not realise his true potential will never achieve far in life.
now there are no more distractions for me.i got over it.its a thing of the past.its time for me to excel now.

right now i hold the very insignia that i will earn 5 years later.a pilot's wing.

funny though how i used to say that i will someday buy an airplane that could take me anywhere in the world.

but for now.let's attain some distinctions.

hello.its really a long,long time since i updated.

school started last tuesday and it was jammed packed with orientation camps.first had Freshmen Orientation Workshop(FOW) then had Freshmen Orientation Camp(FOC) 2 days later.it was really memorable for us GLs and freshies.got to know a LOT of freshies too.

oh by the way,NEON rocks!!!!!not forgetting Nepo!! =]

on FOC,Neon got second after Xeon.argh.
same for FOW i guess.

then just before school starts,got INT School Freshmen Orientation.again i participated to become Orientation Leader(OL).heheh.nothing to do.

well can you believe it;projects are already streaming in.CMSK3,MWNK,WAPD,MDBS....WTS not yet......

i'm taking these subjects this semester:

Mobile & Wireless Networking(MWNK)
Wireless & Technology Services(WTS)
Wireless Applications Development(WAPD)
Communication Skills 3(CMSK3)
Mobile Database Systems(MDBS)
Computing Mathematics 1(C Maths 1)
Applied Principles for Effective Living 2(APEL 2)

not taking any CDS or electives coz of that damn bloody C Maths 1.im retaking the goddamn subject.

ahhhh.today was a bore.went to school at 8am only to find out C Maths 1 tutorial was not held this week.chee bye.

oh yeah,by the way,i performed extremely well today.i found out that i excelled much much much much much MUCH more without thinking of that someone.

so well that's it really.i'll update now if i have the time.

sayonara.suki.anata.watashi.

let's see.how many weeks it has been since i last updated.....darn quite some time.*lazy to count*

last wednesday had Freshman Orientation Workshop(FOW).it was at the very least exhausting and on the 1st night alone,i caught a slight fever.all because i didn't get enough sleep i think.so i went home for the next 2 nights to rest.met a lot of freshies.....

oh by the way, NEPO rocks!!

there were 3 sub empires namely Nepo,Nepy and Neno.pronounced as (NEE-PY,NEE-PO,NEE-NO) funny though.Nepo sounds like nipple and those buggers(sub comm) thought it was really nipple.main empire name was Neon and as it were for the rest of the empires when we were in OTC.

right now i really can't be bothered to update in detail.maybe after the camp.yes.i got another camp from monday - wednesday(9 May-11 May).i took pics of the camp of course.its over 100MB worth.

now listening to Final Fantasy VII Sephiroth's Theme Song.really cool.really tense music.

i have no comment.

so i failed my C Maths 1 and FNDB.
so?
but i passed FNDB on supp paper.
but i failed C Maths 1 on supp paper.

BLOODY HELL...................

i knew it!!darn i had that goddamn feeling.

i spent the whole day watching tv.absolutely nothing to do.anyways,i got a pre-camp on 3rd May all the way to 6th May.i thought of going for the arts thing on 6th with someone.but damn...i shall think of a way out.

*thinking.....*

nothing on HBO,nothing on Nickelodeon,nothing on Cartoon Network,nothing on Disney Channel,nothing on Playhouse Disney,nothing on Discovery Channel,nothing on National Geographic Channel.maybe i'll watch MTV.

i seriously can't believe how i failed my Computing Maths 1 module.Its really bugging me all day and would bug me throughout FOC to the next sem.

::: tellmeareasonworthfightingfor :::

usually,i blog in the late night.but i guess today i'll write off in very early morning.

let me get straight to the story.yesterday i went to sentosa's siloso beach.with my 2e4 classmates.it was ridiculously hilarious..and fun too....it turned out to be an all-gay club outing.hahahahahaa.....~

me,lemuel,ben,hadi,zhi hui and his twin brother zhi da,vincent and later christopher.the rest,all MIA.it was bloody frustrating at first because most in fact many of them simply can't be bothered to come.but hey,we still had fun.

swim,play ball,swim,play ball,swim,play ball.once vincent kicked the ball into a foreign lady.IN THE HEAD and while she was taking a picture.imagine what the picture will turn out to be.maybe the ball above her head.vincent and his sharpshooting skills.hahah.

then when the day was growing older,we headed off to harbourfront centre and ate at the macdonalds there.sitting there talking about the good ol' times while eating.then headed back to tampines thereafter.went to play pool.went home at around 1am.

today,i stayed home all day as i had a flu.supposed to go out with my TP classmates to buy stuff for chalet.now at 90% recovered.9% still tiredness.1% sunburnt.it friggin' hurts when i bath with hot water.and my face is feeling heaty all the time.

i love you so much.

yosh!!....long time never update.

friggin' supplementary papers been killing me.oh well.you gain some,you lose some i suppose.i've been watching Xenosaga the animation,Kakyuusei 2,Bleach,Gundam SEED Destiny.
Xenosaga has an impressive storyline.Kakyuusei 2 was more on the emotional side;really touching storyline.Bleach was impeccable.Gundam SEED Destiny was excellent.

now downloading GunBuster 2.

i think for the past few entries you people might begin to think that i have no life.the truth is;i had a life.maybe tomorrow i shall change the song.i said maybe.Gundam SEED Destiny song.

baka-yaro!!

ienai itami,kanashimi de kizutsuita kimi yo
kesenai koto mo seoiattekou
ikiru koto nagedasanaide!

tsumaida,kimi no te o
itsuka ushinatte shimau no ka na?
usurete yuku egao to kimi o mamoritai kara

hibiku boku o yobu koe sae kare
tokesou kaze ni kikasaretatte
kimi o mitsukedasu!

ienai itami,kanashimi de kizutsuita kimi mo
waraeni nante,hito kirai nante kotoba sou iwanaide

mienai mirai ni okoru koto subete ni imi ga aru kara
ima wa sono mama de ii,kitto kizukeru toki ga kuru darou

You and Me,two are spoken.
itsuka wakariaeru kara
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(Opening Theme for Bleach episode 26, D-technolife by UVERworld)
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Translation in English:

You've been hurt by unspeakable pain and sadness
Let's carry each other's indelible stains
Don't give up on living!

I held your hand
Will I end up losing them someday?
I want to protect you and your fading smile,so...

Even if the resounding voice calling me should wither...
Even if the mingling winds should tell me...
I will find you!

You've been hurt by unspeakable pain and sadness,but...
Don't say things like "I can't laugh" or "I hate people"

There's a meaning on everything that happens in the unseen future,
So stay as you are for now, I know there'll come a time when you realize it

You and Me,two are spoken
Someday we'll understand each other.
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nice song.maybe 1 of these days i'll upload this song into my bloggie.as always,its dedicated to someone.and this song is dedicated to syaf.heheh.well,you always sound gloomy even though outside you're happy right.?i know.you must cheer up okay?heeeheee.

well,last night i had a marathon again.i slept at around 7am.and guess what.i was rudely awakened by my handphone.it was my small sister,and i really blasted her for that.damn.
after that i can't sleep no more.

did you know?Gundam SEED Destiny episode 25 and Bleach episode is released today.

Destiny was fine.Bleach was impressive.as always.

it seems i have run out on my ideals.well,i got to rest.damn i can't have marathon.i'm leaving my laptop and desktop running.i'm downloading some anime.

well,see you guys around.

i love you so much.tell me why i love you so much.

it is now confirmed.i'm now sleeping beyond 12am.for almost everyday.hey a lot of good documentaries are on tv.for example,The Body Snatchers on Discovery channel,CSI:New York on AXN,Megastructures on National Geographic channel,Spongebob Squarepants on Nickelodeon?hahah.

so well anyway,there i was sitting in front of the tv the whole day while having my laptop on the coffee table in front of the tv as well.using my wireless network to connect to the internet.damn fine day if you ask me until................

my stomach growls.

yep.it needs food.let me tell ya'll something.when my stomach ain't feeling good,i don't feel good.

(*) (*)
(.o . o.)
(") (")
((") ("))

eh look.i created a rather fat bunny.oh well.i got to study for supp paper anyway.that pieced of cursed printed paper.now now,let's not get carried away.

i really haven't been doing my tie & dye lately.not much.hahah.guess how much of sewing i did.only the centre part and it ain't lookin' too good.gotta' do some revision first.
guess what i got for the exams.

JMP 2 - C
FCSOS - C
FNDB - F
C MATHS 1 - F
HuH&D - C+
LDRSHP - C+

hahah.ok.what i think is that they're a bit screwed up.that is some serious shit.i've been slacking my life off.but with new found inspiration i shall continue to persevere.i will become 1 of the greatest.i promised myself some A's for next semester.from what i think,its not a matter of having shit for brains,its all about the courage and the persistence to face up to the task.the result?

persistence + courage = an asshole with the brains of einstein with the guts of hitler

you know,some people are just born to piss people off.

in my opinion,politics are bullshit.what is democracy?what are meritocracy?what are capitalism?hah.i better not comment on anything.before the ISD bust my ass off.

i think.i'm going to get myself a girlfriend.

another one?no.the same one.hahah.just joking.no.i was joking about getting another one.someone may get jealous.ok,but back off,she's mine.eyes off or i'll rip your guts off.she's beautiful ain't she.

friggin' air-con.it leaked.now i have to sleep on fan power.urgh.its a shame.you know,i've always thought that this world was filled with technological greatness.but to think my air-con started to 'piss' in my room.that's beyond words.if you get what i mean.

well.i guess that's that. guess i'll be having a mid-early morning bath.

i love you.mmmwwwwwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!~

Life Goes On
Mamoritakute
Kokoro wa kudakarete
Hontou no kanashimi wo shitta hitomi wa ai ni afurete

namida de ni jinda kono sora wo miageru tabi
hakanai aosaga mune wo shimetsuketeku
sadame nara kanashimi no hate made tatakai tsuzuketa hibi wo ato ni
Life Goes On
Moeagaru
inochi ga aru kagiri
Shin jitsu no jibun sae miushinai sou sore demo
Life Goes On
Mamoritakute
Kokoro wa kudakarete
Hontou no kanashimi wo shitta hitomi wa ai ni afurete

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(Ending Theme for Gundam SEED Destiny Episode 23,Life Goes On by Mira Arisaka)
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Translation:

Life Goes On
I wanted to protect it
But your heart was shattered
And those eyes which know true sorrow were filled with love

Every time I look up at this sky stained with tears
Its empty blueness squeezes my heart
If its my destiny to leave behind the days when I fought till the limits of my sorrow
Life Goes On
I flare up
As long as i still have my life
Even if I almost lose sight of my true self
Life Goes On
I wanted to protect it
But your heart was shattered
And those eyes which know true sorrow were filled with love
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well anyway the first part was a piano solo.too nice to be called nice.its impressive.
i didn't have enough sleep.because you know why?i stayed up all night sewing and well...chatting with syaf.at around 5am,my eyes were like 'HEY MAN!!!I NEED SOME SHUT EYE!!!'.
so i slept!!!told syaf to wake me up at 6.30am but instead i slept through to 7am.bugger.hahahahahahhahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.a few days ago my eyes were already suffering from 2 non-sleeping days.now i feel so.....energetic.because you know why?i'm ready to blast someone off.someone who was suppose to wake me up!!!hahahah.no la.just joking.

ok.I'M JUST JOKING!!.bluekz.now i really need some sleep.maybe i shall update later.

oh by the way,did i tell you Gundam SEED Destiny anime ROCKS!!!~

hey don't touch Lacus!!!she's mine.and so is Lunamaria Hawke!!!hands off.buggers.

hey whadda fuck?i just highlighted my recent update and it was gone!!!!damn bloody this blogspot editor.bloody fuck.i typed so long.*trying to recall what i typed.assured that its 90% accurate.*

a couple of things before i start.i slept at 4.30am just now.hahah.i had a couple of interesting dreams that are just worth the while typing.

firstly,i was giving an international performance playing a violin on a grand stage in front of a live audience.i didn't knew i could play the violin so well.heheh.

second dream, i was married to this blonde caucasian girl with blonde hair;and surprisingly GOLD coloured eyes.her complexion was extremely flawless.doe eyes*except for gold coloured*;stunningly beautiful.i can never forget that face.

it was......unimaginable.ok so like we're sleeping in this room in this house.out of nowhere these group of armed people with guns stormed in and i fought with them.both me and the girl escaped using these anti-gravity platforms!!!!cool eh.really it was kinda interesting.Laugh Out Loud.

third dream i didn't remember as well.all i remembered was i blasted through this hall with a broomstick and whacking the shit out of a reporter.the next thing i knew,the reporter went live 'propaganda-ing' my FULL name and told the news that i whacked the bloody cahonas out of her.hahah.

wait.the last dream i faintly remember.it was something about driving a car.but i forgot about it nonetheless because i was instantly awakened by a phonecall.whaddaya expect the bloody phone is just beside my ear.

what ever happened to anime addiction?
i just downloaded Kokyuusei 2 and Pretty Cure.

i'm tired of chasing girls.i'm just tired.now let them chase me instead.this is really unnecessary.

i'm going out.

don't look at me when i'm like this.

ever wondered why we forget stuff?well i did.Anyways,for the last 2 nights;i had sleepless nights.It's what doctors and 'para ahli kesihatan' call;insomnia.but the thing is;its not insomnia.its anime addiction.

today.what did i do today.basically went out for breakfast with Lemuel.Walked past East Spring and i purposely dropped at the adjacent bus stop and walked to 201.Saw nisa,huda and err...some malay dude friend whom i don't know his name.i ate 2 egg 'pratas' and left abruptly at 8am;and i purposely walked home.just to think about some brewing matters in my mind.long walk it may seem.sigh.

so i've been thinking,does your health level and the length you stay alive during combat;depend on a person's rank?does being a General prevent you from dying if you were shot by a sniper whose rank is only sergeant?think about it.

i went to East Spring Sec sports day.it was despicably horrendous that had disaster spelt all over everyone's faces.what a shame.honestly.

compare with the Rome empire.Jupiter house = Rome.ok? now what happened to Rome was;it had a change in leadership and over 'ambitious-ness' of its people.correct history-freaks?
now apply it to Jupiter house's case.and we get Jupiter meets Rome.the East Spring way.

hahah.what a bore.and now i failed Computing Mathematics 1 and Fundamentals in Database Systems.got F's.yea so i slacked.big deal.i just lacked concentration.i trust myself.in this world i trust only myself.its all because of...................

no point pointing fingers.damn.what would you do if you were in my place?blaming others is the only way?we'd be no better than others.

i did all i could,now its up to you.i'm truly sorry.

Bleach is a nice anime.

oh by the way,did i tell you my birthday is on 14th November?

learn through mistakes.i've made a lot.1 of them was falling in love.

i was alone when i secretly told you that;i love you.

--End::

a continuation of previous post....

second post for the day.just finished bathing now awaiting helfi and irfan to come over again.
last 2 nights;i dreamt that a meteor was going to hit Earth.and the TV announced that it was the end of all mankind.i was like friggin' scared.
last night i dreamt i was talking to 1 of my juniors in East Spring Sec.just as the conversation went on,suddenly i don't know what got over me and i hugged her.CRAP!!!

recently i've been reading some books on the functions of the human mind.it states a certain trick to remember your dreams.it friggin works;at least for me for now.i've been into a lot of activities lately.Learn japanese language while juggling the intricacies of Mandarin without professional help. My schedule from next week onwards would be alternating going to the gym,swimming,tie and dye,learning language day and lastly playing games and chatting. and football training. *although i don't chat very often,coz nobody wants to talk to me.*

oh by the way,my highest score for Spider Solitaire is 1900 in 110 moves.hahah.beat that.
best scores for minesweeper:
-Beginner (7 seconds)
-Intermediate (38 seconds)
-Expert (95 seconds)

anyway,results for semester exam are out this Saturday.make it or break it.oh and and,there's no such thing as luck.

why are you doing this to me?

recently i've been eyeing some desktop computer upgrade.upgrade hard disk drive,DVD-ROM,CPU,RAM,graphics card,sound card + speaker.its about the same cost of building a brand new modded desktop machine.

for now,maybe i'll upgrade my laptop's RAM coz its been friggin' laggy.damn.

hakana ku chitta hikari ga
bokura wo ima yobisamasu
kanashimawa oto wo tate
kieru ano basho kara

fukaku ai suru
yuuki to kibou tsuyoku
kanjiru kono kioku ga
karamiau kokoro to kokoro wo tsunaide ugokidashiteru

kagayaku hikari ga terashi
bokura wo ima yobiokosu
hibikiau oto wo tate
kizamu kono basho kara
towa ni shinjitsuzukete

(Opening theme song for Gundam SEED Destiny Phase 13 onwards by High & Mighty Color,Pride)

this song is singing in my head.sigh.been missing sumone so badly.well,thats the reason why i had been starting to do tie and dye.to keep my mind off things.well......thats all i can do.

irfan and helfi came over my house today,to do tie and dye.it was super interesting.at least im not spending the day in solitude within the confines of my room and the company of my laptop and desktop computer.i'll be continuing the craft tomorrow too.well,mine is a small one.keeps things simple enough.it turned out to be a square.too bewildered to describe.me and my misery.bought a 1 metre cloth for $2.99 .bought the dyes,the string for $9.80 .ok.shit.

i'm beginning to think that having a girlfriend or finding 1 for that matter;is somewhat an obstacle.well...for 1 reason....its bugging me from my studies.argh.whatever.now is not the time for relationships i suppose.now i'm not worrying about a relationship.now i'm friggin' worrying like fuck if i'm going to retake a whole friggin' semester!!!!

goddammit.i hate myself.really.

anyways,my phone is getting silent this week.no smses.no calls.might as well turn it off and i myself go into hibernation.whaddeheck.who cares anyway,i have less bill to pay,save money.
someone unimportant like me.its ironic anyway.only when people have trouble then approach me.if not,not a single word from them.what am i?customer service?or helpdesk?argh.whatever.
nobody cares anyway.is it because i'm too forgiving?or is it because the world is so banged up that nobody else would help them.i wonder.

sometimes i feel as though i fare better off being alone.no worries,no troubles.foolish you might say.or selfish.but do not ever think i cannot achieve.my intelligence is definitely far more superior than most people.

i'm really missing her.help?

in all my years,i've never asked for a bigger favour.

destroy my dreams,but never destroy my heart for it contains the love that i have saved for you through the years.for always.

hiya lil dudes,
its been a long time.long time since i had the time to sit down and blog.well who cares anyway.nobody reads.oh well.that's not the point of this blog existing anyway.just to pen down my thoughts.

1 week ago,my grandfather passed away.sigh.never did expect that to happen.well,not soon though.such a loss.since then my mind became disarrayed.oh well.i will soon calm down.funny though,before my late grandmother died 2 years ago,i used to talk about my ambition.a pilot.she used to say,'study hard,achieve your dreams...' well......uhm....ok....

so last few weeks was hectic.didn't had time for anybody.always keeping in sync with time to rush off projects,revision;though i didn't do that much for revision,i sure hope to pass to year 2.
JMP 2 was ok.FCSOS was simple enough.FNDB was a Mother Of All Bombs(MOAB).Computing Mathematics 1 is yet to be determined this Monday,28th March 2005,0930 hrs.

Nobody reads this crap anyway.Damn my last template is in my laptop.Links and all.Urgh.
So for now,maybe i'm just going to put down my name and tagboard if possible.goddamn i hate changing templates.well,i guess i'll sign in back later.

*EvEn My LonELiNeSs TuRnS tO StReNgTh WhEn I tHiNk Of YoU.*
*samishisa mo tsuyosa eto kawatteku kimi wo omottanara*

dIsMiSsEd SoLdIeR!!!

goddammit...its midnight...i shall update later.got a long,long,long entry to write.

hiya lil dudes,
today,nothing much happened.really.i was late for fcsos lecture.ok so what right?then met up with the rest and went to eat at business school.went library for a while and talk rubbish.hahahahhaaaaaaaa....really funny it was.

then at about 12pm went for a mini birthday celebration.ahakz.funny ah.......then about 1pm i went home.suppose go watch movie with syaf but cancelled.so ok.i really got nothing to do at home.bore myself.watched Futakoi and Bleach anime.really interesting.so yar,got myself something to do by watching cartoons on nickelodeon,disney channel and cartoon network.what are they teaching these kids nowadays i wonder........its got no logic whatsoever...darn...

ok so like,whatever.....in msn the whole day.no one to talk to.where are my friends when i need them ay?oh wait.i have no friends.pretty much normal.what's the world coming to.

should i sacrifice a scholarship for the girl of my dreams?yes?no?you know what i think?
it doesn't matter what i think.it all comes down to 1 thing.its whether i have what it takes to achieve what i want.what makes me different from the rest?that...i would like to know.......

its distracting me.....my mind is in disarray....seems like these past few weeks my mind seems to be soooo....distant....my smiles hide something....something that i shall not tell anyone....some things are better kept as secrets....secrets no one will ever know..knowledge,skill,information...
sworn to secrecy.i talked a bit to izyan just now.maybe she doesnt know how i feel.people don't understand me.i think.always alone.always.

maybe i should just study hard.get that scholarship,go overseas and leave all my troubles behind.wouldn't that be running away?

oh how vulnerable my feelings are.they always are.its only i don't show them and i protect them well.maybe my troubles will go away tomorrow.

hope doesn't bring happiness.it brings you the opportunity to bring happiness. -Muhammad Ruzaini- 8th March 2005

i wonder what i will become in the future.a fighter pilot.an army officer.a computer scientist.systems engineer.research engineer.scientist.doctor

maybe i should just............shut up.

hiya lil dudes,
so uhm what's up?Angelwing.i'm looking through the Massachusetts Institute of Technology(MIT) entry admission form.and its an OMG.i was thinking of going into sciences.physics or biology or computer science with electrical engineering.power.then there's nuclear engineering;i wonder what good will it do to Singapore.LoL.

of course i must excel in polytechnic.damn.i must really get a grip.in short, if i don't;there goes my dream.well,i have to choose sooner or later......pilot???.....or MIT???

either way,i'm going overseas for my Uni studies.that's for sure.so guys,after my NS.....i'm off on a jet plane alright.but uhm....ultimately...its the desire that counts...no point studying overseas when all you think is your loved ones right.i've drawn up some long-term plans.after NS,sign-on in air force,get married then maybe migrate.i got to think properly about this.

i'll think about this over time.

*wHeNeVeR i ThInK oF yOu,NiGht BeCoMeS dAy,EmBrAcInG mE wItH iTs LiGhT.*

hiya lil dudes,
wokay.today was an oh-so-bad day.coz i'm havin the flu;well slightly.the day dragged by slowly.i woke up at 10am!!!1 hr late for FCSOS lecture.oh well.

okay so like after the lecture at 2pm, i sat down on a bench with andy and watched 'The Girl Next Door'.The show was like 'oh-my-god'; it was a real turn on.really.so at 4pm i went to HuH&D tutorial.and like it was okay.at 5pm, i called lemuel and went to hadi house.muahahahhahaha......

played some games at hadi house but me and lemuel left at around 7pm+ to TM.lemuel wanted to get a CD.well........okay.went around the place to music junction.then went home.till this point,i realised that i had forgotten to submit my LOA for open house.....crappppp......

reached home and went into msn.kacau izyan for a while and i called her,she refused to pick up.....crapppppp.....but a while later she called me.sounded like she wanted to eat me.who cares anyway.so uhm that's that for today.

i guess.i've been having weird dreams.dunt know what they mean.oh well.oh yeah!!i've been looking at stars.they're nice to look at i tell you.most identifiable is Orion's belt.takes my breath away. are my dreams telling me the future? that i would like to know........

my dreams are?sorry guys.some things are better kept as secrets.

*aNd I bReAtHe YoU iNtO mY hEaRt AnD pRaY fOr ThE sTrEnGtH tO sTaNd ToDaY cAuSe I lOvE yOu*

hiya lil dudes,
the day started fine.fine and dandy.till it was about to end.i am so fucking pissed.don't ask why.i'm fine on my own.

on a bright note,i think i need a haircut.on second thoughts,i think i want to keep long hair.

too angry to continue.what a fucked up day.

*iamthealpha.iamtheomega.iamthebeginning.iamtheend*

dIsMiSsEd SoLdIeR!!!

hiya lil dudes,
*bear with me.its a long entry,way too long.read on if you want.*

another tyme...long tyme never update...LoL....wattodo....busy siaoz....just taking time off things....so uhmm....i'll start on Valentine's Day orite....hmmm 14th February...truly 14 is my lucky number....hahakz....bdae on 14th November...Valentine day 14th Feb...okie...cut it..

morning...i woke up...supposed to go to C Maths lecture...but never go..why?i woke up late.waahahahaha..my mum nvr wake me up!!!humph..i have developed this resistance to alarm clocks..i can sleep like a log i tell you..if im tired that is...okie...so i bathed...dad took the day off...surprising though....okie...so i got ready...and sms syaf....then go meet her lah...wat else...i was like waiting.....and waiting...sempat play ard with my laptop...ahahakz...then at the table...got this 2 uncle....go eat there...so i walked away.....

then at last...syaf came down...i was like...'orgh...dude...where have you been??...' we talked abt some things for a while....walked around the neighbourhood?because you know why?the tables around there....most of them got people...i was like....'omfg,what am i gonna do..' but ok la...walk2 then found 1 table empty..so we sat..and chatted...then she got to go off...and me too...because of the stupid java lecture at 1pm...urgh....btw..i skipped C maths tutorial at 12pm too...but...come to think of it..i dun mind it at all...i'd rather spend time with syaf than being in C Maths..seriously..

i gave syaf what i bought....her a 'gift'...hope she likes it?*cover head in case it flies back at me*
ok ya....so uhm....dats it....generally....cant say more i suppose....not here....i wont tell you all what happened!!!!!muahahahahahahahahhahahahhahhahahahhahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..its a secret.

okie...so like...i went to school...to find out that Java lecture has been postponed....i was like 'what the bloody hell???????*blink at the notice letter posted outside LT 9* haiii....okla..then met my classmates....then FNDB tutorial...then at 3pm got java lecture as usual...at 4pm-6pm..got FNDB lab..then from 6pm-7pm got HuH&D lecture as usual..then from 7pm-8pm..guess wad?FNDB lecture!!!!urgh....make up lecture lahh....wah kao....freaking cold inside LT...i was shaking sia....so i went home..and guess wad????my modem..urgh.....make trouble sia....wah kao...i damm frustrated....no one to chat with..so i sms......syaf..haha....ok wad....'discuss' some things...then i gotta do project...damm....seriously...i gotta do it.....damm projects due today....and 1 next week..so i did 2 projects concurrently....slept at ard 3am...woke up at 6am..just to continue the projects..thats why today im a bit 'off'.....'off' as in....unstable in the mind...

so uhm...today was a rough day.really....then during Leadership & Character class...gotta go Adventure Learning Course...coz got some outdoor activity..ok la..quite fun...firstly..it was leadership skills at its finest....ok..it was hot..and i was sweating like spongebob. =) ok so got over it....then went to engine canteen..discuss project stuff...then off i went to comp lab...decided to go ES instead to meet fandi and to brief him abt open house 2moro....ok...thats it..i went home a tired boy today....now i can barely move about...well..maybe i sms 'somebody'... =)

byeee dudes....oh yeah..i found some jap lyrics..the song really nice siaoz..taken from Gundam Seed Destiny episode 13....here goes :

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kotoba wo kasanetemo
wakari aenai koto
mada shiranakatta ne
kimi dake dakishimetakute
nakushita yume kimi wa
akiramenaide to itta

tooku hanareteru hodo ni
chikaku ni kanjiteru
samishisa mo tsuyosae to kawatteku
kimi wo omotta nara

setsunaku mune wo sasu
sore wa yume no kakera
ari no mama deaeteta sono kiseki
mou ichi do shinjite
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in English :

even though we'd exchange a lot of words
we still couldn't understand each other completely
but we didn't notice it
i only want to hold you
though i lost my dream,
you told me "not to give it up"

the further the distance between us,
the more i feel closer
even the sadness changes to strength,
when i think of you

what is the cause of this poignant sorrow?
it's a remaining piece of my dream
miraculously, we had once been able to face each other without awkwardness
let's believe in such a miracle once again.
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ok dudes...2moro is Temasek Polytechnic's open house...i'll be in logistics comm if u all dun mind...I-guides thing...I-guides at your service....kk

for those of you who miss it...here are the dates...

17th Feb 2005 = 1330hrs - 1800hrs
18th Feb 2005 = 1330hrs - 1800hrs
19th Feb 2005 = 1030hrs - 1700hrs

see ya there..anything just call me...or msg...if budget...LoL....

*i WaNt To LoVe YoU aLL mY LiFe,I pRoMiSe*

dIsMiSsEd SoLdIeR!!!

hiya lil dudes,
long time nvr update...i know..ok..cut the chase...abt yesterday...went back to ES..nth much...just jumper my cuzz...huda...yaya..usmani...fandi was with me...then we all go eat at food court...then go duno where la i forgot..the playground???lepak there until 2pm..huda got tuition...then i went my cuzz house...and later at 5pm..went to see movie...Constantine.....power sia the show...then until 7.30pm..me,hadi and lemuel go eat prata...then chilled out until 12am+...hahahhaha..and i came home...tired....

so thats it...todae is chinese new year....duno where to go...im just..tired...bye....*short entry huh?*...ok...

*bE aLL yOu CaN bE*

dIsMiSsEd SoLdIeR!!!

hiya lil dudes,
aeh...long time never update siaoz...firstly..last monday to wednesday i got camp...then thursday i was simply too tired to update...friday...too lazy to update...saturday which was 59 minutes ago..i was chatting with nisa...ahhahahakz...

so about the camp...

MONDAY (24th January 2005)
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Orientation Group Leader's Camp for freshman next April intake...so i woke up at 8am+..bathed and packed my stuff last minute!!!...ok...i got FNDB lecture at 10am...i went to the lecture...then at 11am...me and alan walked off for lunch....go design school at eat....so by 11.45am we were at the SDC lvl 1...i met a few familiar faces..from adventure club....I-guides....etc..okie..so i was in Neon empire...gosh..then in Argon's empire..i saw aida's name..wakakakaka....so i was alone siaoz in Neon...basically there were 5 empires...Neon,Argon,Krypton,Xeon and Radon....so the soon-to-be GLs reported..then we headed to Alumni lounge to put our bags and went to Koi pond under the library..it was really....havoc sia..the MC...Kai really spiced things up...wahhaha...then..it was ice breaking time.i was all alone there..dun know the pple...but Jeremy and Zhe Han,the FA,for Neon is there to help us out...hahakz..and Neon was assigned Confidence and Creativity for a GL attribute...we played games..like 'blow wind blow'..the 'chick,chicken,eagle' game...then it was time to present a skit on Confidence and Creativity...

we were split into 2 groups,the marching group and the dancing group....i was in the dancing group..doing the chicky dance..wakakkakaka....farnie sia...then bla bla bla....it was 3.45pm...time to go for Scuba Diving Orientation...weeehoooo...met fandi at sports complex...then got a briefing on the equipment...the hand signals...wat to do and wat not to do...bla bla...then me and fandi got into gear and tested the scuba gear...ok...then after that....a while later....the instructor dragged me to the 4 metre side...at first i was scared siaoz...but then ok readi...what a sight it was....fun siaoz!!!!then we throw2 things at the bottom..nearly 2 stories high...wooohooo..amazing uhhh...then we pose for photo...heheh....then like 10 minutes...we went back up...fun ahh...then at the surface...when i take out my breathing regulator...my mouth was so damm dry!!wahhaha....okies...so waited for Yasser and his fren to finish...then swam a bit..at 6pm..i went back to camp...i changed to dry clothes then ate dinner...to think that was great...LoL....

so uhmmm....we got to design our empire's flag...really cool.. 'In Darkness, Neon shines' ..cool...then..for the games part..we went to tampines central....first up was charade games at HDB building..then the shoe thingy at outside Cash Converter where u give your partner each shoe to left and right and got shuffled and try to find your shoe back blindfolded...really cool..next up was really irritating...we were shuffled...then blindfolded...we were supposed to form a line while blindfolded from 1-35 respectively...and we cannot talk...each of us were given a number...haiii...then lastly the station at outside century square starbucks was fun...we were supposed to create an impromptu skit...fun siaoz...about singapore idol thing then mix with goldilocks and 3 bears and S.H.E and abt Nike commercial...i played as a s'pore idol judge..Douglas O...OMG!!!coz of my hair...LoL...haii..then after that we were supposed to go back school..but averted to Macdonalds to buy foodstuff...so after that..took 69 back..watched Desperate Housewives on TVmobile..really hot man....but too bad got censored...then in school..got mass debriefing...fucking long..then got individual empire debriefing..haii..then off to bathe and eventually sleep....at 2am...*end of day 1*

DAY 2 (25th January 2005)
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it was fucking freezing...i was wearing shorts to sleep..and not inside my sleeping bag...woke up at 6am...to the sound of techno blasting at full power!!!really jia lat....wattodo..then bathe readi all..the Kai apologise...abt the music coz of misundersanding between him and production crew....abt playing music...so that settled..then we went outside to the running tracks...and we did some morning PT...mainly...Spiderman,Superman,and Batman..ahahhahahahhaha...sot..then form human chain lahz...havoc siaoz...then off to breakfast...ate porridge and milo...ahahahakz..can ahh...then off to games..which lasted the whole afternoon...then by night..tired readi....took some pics....and same procedure for night....*end of day 2*

DAY 3 (26th January 2005)
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last day in camp...this time..i did not freeze..coz i was IN my sleeping bag..anyway we slept at the sports complex...then no morning PT...song bo..haha...woke up at 6.45am...then go bathe and change into our orange GL t shirt...off to Mensa 2 for breakfast...saw some paratroopers jumping out of C-130 Charlie....cool....then off to games...again...in and outside school...farnie ah...two times we sand and did some cheers in the toilet...first time was in the handicap toilet and second was in the girl's toilet!!!wooohooo......fun siaoz....then..it was time for Final Clash...muahahaha...its water bomb time!!!!5 empires...fighting for survival...1st round..i threw a direct hit at a gerl..well..didnt expect to hit her...but i threw a curl..supposedly to hit a boy in front...but it curled out...just nice..hit a gerl at kidney area...PIAK!!!SCORE!!!muahahaha...Krypton empire was eliminated out first..next was my empire,Neon....all the rest of the empire busted us...3 on 1....i was hit on the kidney..hard....i cursed and swore..really....and hell was it painful.....so i sat behind and saw my empire kena thrashed...haiyaa....then next was Argon..then Radon..Xeon was the champion...ahahahakz..well...then it was time to head back to sports complex....had dinner.....then mass debriefing..and individual briefing...haii..last debriefing for camp...ok...take picture all...then got gathering at outside CPF KFC...so i ate there with the rest with other GLs...sat there until abt 12am..i damm tired readi...so im home by 12.30am on thursday morning...i bathed...and slept...*end of day 3* =)

*cInTaKu bUkaN diAtAs KeRtAs,CintAkU gEtArAn YanG sAmA...*

ceh..siti nurhaliza seyy...tgh dengar lagu dier daaa...pe nak buat...

dIsMiSsEd SoLDIeR!!!

hiya lil dudes,
halo angelwing...today is Hari Raya Haji.later goin to grandma's house.well..except the fact that aku tak pergi sembahyang hari raya kat masjid.ahahahah.i'm too tired to go.woke up at 12.10pm and bathed went to masjid for friday prayers.immediately i went off after it had finished.

i'm too bored to go anywhere.tomorrow still got Human Health & Diseases paper.haiyaz...in de morning....wakrak siak...other people are already enjoying their holidays...then monday to wednesday next week, i have Group Orientation Leader's Camp....and monday haf scuba diving orientation...and monday also have FNDB make up lecture...wtf?oh well....what a life..bye.

*iF i HaD eVeR a ChAnCe To SaY aNyThInG to YoU, iT wOuLd Be 'I LoVe YoU...'*

dIsMiSsEd SoLdIeR!!!

hiya lil dudes,
okay...first thing's first....Java Mobile Programming 2 paper was really darn easy....except i made a few mistakes here and there...roughly worth 5 marks...but still have hope of getting an A....tomorrow is Computing Mathematics 1 paper....abt binary and decimals....i think it shud be easy...nvr study..LoL....

hermm...i gotta give my desktop a break....been 2 days since i switched it off during the night...been downloading some songs...ahahahhakz....sheeshkebabbed...now im using my laptop...hermm...ok

so about the java paper.it was pretty much okay. System.out.println, get & set method and there was no method overloading stuff!!!boy was i really happy..hahahaha....i breezed through the paper and within 45 minutes, i was outta there. Compared to JMP1, i think.....JMP2 is easier??but JMP2 assignment on Milestone 2 is going to be a real killer.really.

herm...the weird part is,i didnt sleep well last night.my mind was wondering.halfway through the night,i was mostly chatting with syaf.till 3am?and i continued playing Pro Evoluton Soccer 4 through the night.i became quite urm....lazy to study...i'm a genius i know. hahah.

now lets see...i havent print my term test timetable...how irritating can that be...i dun need the timetable anyway...just jot it down in my hp...LoL...now awaiting Computing Mathematics 1 paper.

its like onli 300+ more days till my 18th birthday...hope to get my car licence soon...and i'll be driving to school...yay!!provided i have a car...now i haf to study hard...then....a Mitsubishi Eclipse Spyder will be mine!!!!muhahhahahahahahhaha....its so farn to haf your very own car at 18...guess what's the price for a Mitsubishi convertible?$53k+ for the car onli...cheap siao...plus COE,insurance now its like 100k+ singapore dollars.....work hard,play hard,enjoy.

now i'm so bored.

oh and...Ministry of Defence is enlightened to pull me into the army because of my enthusiasm in the Air Force.NS letter just came.

guess i'll be revising my maths.....soon...i hope...

*i HoPe I lOvE yOu aLL mY LiFe.*

dIsMiSsEd SoLdIeR!!!

hiya lil dudes,
halo Angelwing...long time i nvr update ahh...??wattodo...i busy siao....2 projects gone.....CMSK and Leadership & Character movie review..its a busy week....morning till evening in school..then at night.....play game!!!!!!!!!!all the way till 2am-3am....Pro Evolution Soccer 4...woooohooooooo.....ok....so...last few days i refrained myself from playing games....

so i skip all the nonsense...from 1st Jan till 10th Jan....coz its gonna be 1 long entry....so on tuesday.....busy giler nak mampus....rushing to do CMSK project from Saturday...then do last minute touch ups....then at 7+pm..i went home....then at night...i research2 again....at around 12am...i started to do my Leadership & Character movie report....its worth 1200 words...but i manage to come up with 1,093 words....nice ay? i did it in abt 4-5 hrs??till 4am+....but luckily syaf is there to accompany me but onli till 3am....sooo..its ok....thanks anyway..really appreciate it syaf...strangely though...everytime i'm doing my most impt stuff...she's online...ahhahahakz... =)

so uhmmm....on wednesday...i presented....but it somehow was really screwed up....gad dammit...there goes my distinction....but nvm..still can make it for FCSOS,C Maths1,FNDB,Human Health & Diseases,Leadership & Character....but my JMP2....no comment uhh....like cannot make it sia....okok....then got leadership tutorial....it was ok lor...but i fell asleep halfway...oh darn.....i was THAT tired....wad u expect??sleep at 4am...wake up at 7am....who's not tired?then after that..my mass tutorial on human health....went through the quiz....i was 9 marks away from getting full marks!!!!!!!arrrrrgggggggggghhhhhhhhhh!!!careless careless!!!!i MUST get an A for human health.....andy got 29!!!1 mark away from full marks...i was like...wow.....nvm....i know i can be a genius....wad am i talking abt??i AM a genius....just plain lazy..hahahaha.....

ok..so after that went home....now today......
went to school at 9am...skipped FNDB lecture...i was late anyway....by 45 mins...so no point going....then went to eat at mac...went back to school for FCSOS lecture.....in the lecture...i played Pro Evolution Soccer 4...wahhhahhahah!!!!i was soooo bored....but i listened!!!multi-tasking....so uhmm..then after the lecture...go to the INTSC booth for recruiting players for Director's Cup...aiyah...some sports day thing for IT school....then sat there until ard 3.....met aida...went with her for lunch....well we didnt really went for lunch...just talk crap...with her other 2 friends....then sat with her until abt 5...then she had klass...so went with her to business school...then i went out of school...called syaf..said i wanted to give her the jigsaw puzzle....

under her block...met her and..........NAZIE!!!i thot salah orang sia....firstly they both look different....skali panggil salah orang....paisey siaooo....ok..so like....talk a bit....a bit oni....coz i was not feeling that well....have flu lahh...lack of sleep....so i walked to 201...took 28 home..and the rest is u know wat happen routine....reach home...msn....nobody..watch tv....eat...now later on i wanna sleep liao.....

tomorrow start school at 4pm!!!!!!!!yeahhhh....so...good nite dudes...Angelwing....byeeeeeeee...

*yOu'Re My SuNsHiNe AfTeR tHe RaIn.YoU'Re ThE cUrE aGaInSt My FeAr AnD mY pAiN.cOz i'M lOsInG mY mInD wHeN yOu'Re NoT aRoUnD.

dIsMiSsEd SoLdIeR!!!

hiya lil dudes,
hello Angelwing.it's just irritating how the world can be with secrets.but i always strive to dig them out.whatever it takes.hate it when people underestimate me.i maybe slow but i'm blessed with a far superior and exceptional IQ.i am smarter and more cunning than you think.all of you don't know me.what i live for.why am i still alive.what i am.

often i am told.everyone is equal.no being is different.well i am.when it comes to competition.i fight for what's best.i don't settle for second best.afterall that's what competitions are for.it's where the best conceals victory and the weak fall.

i love you.nothing else matters.i feel its time to let my feelings out and known.soon.i pave my destiny.on second thoughts i don't believe in fate nor destiny.if it happens,it happens.although shit happens.but who cares.its time to get my show on the road.

happy 2005 Angelwing.
happy 2005 my love.
happy 2005 ruzaini.

hiya lil dudes,
foremostly...hello Angelwing...its the new year....hello 2005,goodbye 2004....sweet memories formed from 18th April 2004 to 2nd June 2004....i wonder what would happen if i were to 'go'.....and to never come back....thats where i'll be....the song that relates....tears are shed....memories are remembered...eventually...i'll be forgotten.....well....whatever....

so yesterday...i went rock climbin....at keppel towers...with fandi,hizam,huda and amalina and her siblings....man...im so tired....i'll update more later uhh...i wanna sleep...really cannot type nemore...