She's Hot But The Weather's Hotter!

The weather is so hot and humid nowadays, even taking a trip down to the supermarket without the car is like sweating through a 2.4km run. Even WITH the car with the air-conditioner turned off, its going to be a sweaty ride.

And yes, I'm complaining. Why? Because its very hot and I can't wait to plant my ass in the snow.

Part of me says I'm fair-skinned, part of me says I'm burnt. Oh the horror of looking at myself at the mirror in the bathroom every morning. I see PT kit singlet burns. But I digress.

That's why we must go green! Haha! Burn less fossil fuels and use more green energy. Oh, did you turn off the lights during Earth Hour last Saturday? I sure did. Coz why? Coz I was out from my home!! Gwahhahahahah.

Actually I'm always having Earth hour during the weekdays in the day, I'm not at home and everything's off. Which is a good thing coz I'll be able to cut down the electric bills.

Not that I'm paid to do Earth-saving work, I'm just being a civic-minded citizen. (But yes, I do sleep with the air-con on every night). Guilty as charged. *WHAM*

Alright, I've taken my medication. I've to go to sleep now. Drowsy medicine makes me sleepy.

*DUH!?*

Good night Little Miss Gracie. =)

Choking With Anger

This week has one of the most frustrating weeks ever.

One of them being.

"Sentry to Guardroom, message over."

"Guardroom message, send."

"Can one of you replace me for weapon sentry, I need to go to the toilet!"

"Ok, roger."

In the Guardroom:

"So who's the weapon sentry for the previous detail?"

Wasn't me so must be the other guy since there were only 3 guys.

*Points*

"Eh, go and get your weapon and replace the sentry for a while."

"Don't want ah, now raining, later sick then tomorrow I take MC how?"
and he walked away.

*Me and the other guy gave that WHAT THE FUCKKK? look. like seriously, WHAT THE FUCKKK?*
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Now you know why we call him 'Damn dog', 'anjing', 'dog'.
People need help, he's being calculative. Taf' fuck?

My mind's going nuts. But thankfully, I have a bunch of goofy workmates. My work is not really what I call a relax vocation. Its damn routine. But if it really comes down to the people I work with, this person is not really the colleague I'm interested to have.

In fact, almost the whole camp condemned him. He's just living in the workplace through our superior's grace.

Enough!!!! I need to let some steam off. I'm 'choking with anger' too you know, not just American President-elect Barack Obama.

I wonder how he de-frustrate? Take a flight to somewhere quiet. Afterall, he's got the whole country to himself! I'm just gonna sit in my room and listen to Beethoven's 11-minute 9th Symphony.

Support A Greener Earth!

I changed my blog colours in support of Earth Hour!.

A green touch would add nicely for the months to come. Seems like going towards a 'greener' environment is catching up fast. Why not be in it eh?

Reduce plastic bag use, recycle papers and reuse toilet papers. Oh WAIT, I'm kidding on the last part. How can you reuse toilet paper? -__-"

My Unit has set up a biking community, there's a whole bunch of us that are interested in cycling. Me included so I'm going to get myself a brand new bike. I'm going to get that $600 GT 3.0 Avalanche with disc brakes. Its a mountain bike, though I might consider getting a road bike which is more expensive; up from $1.6k.

I'm doing up the notice board again. Remember the last time I did it? It was last year in January. Darn. Gotta print it all over again.

The Imperfect Apology

I think she hates my guts. Gracie and I had a little misunderstanding yesterday night. Well, an innocent message really turned out into somewhat an unintentional dissension.

Its mostly my fault. I wanted to give her a message this morning, but I think I'll let the matter cool off abit. I don't want to ruin an already bad monday blues.

I mean, what the hell was I thinking. I knew she didn't like it but I just had to test the water. Well done Zaini. Not only have I made her uptight, I've made myself miserable today. >_<"

I'm not really good with apologies. My heart sank with what you told me yesterday. I hope its not true. I'm wondering what is wrong with me? I guess being ignorant about that doesn't help much. Its bothering me that much lately.

But let me get this straight. I would NEVER EVER betray the trust we have.
I believe in honour and chivalry. You have my word as a man. And something that I can never ever explain to you in words.
You just mean the world to me right now.

Gracie, I am sorry.



Patawarin mo ako.

Hello Mr Sorrow. I'm Sad.

I feel so cheated. Not to say the very least, disappointed, furious, sad.

I don't know what to say or think or feel.

Why am I emo-ing like a chick.

What have I done to deserve this.

If loving you was a sin, Dear God, forgive me for I have sinned.

But tonight, I will sleep with my heart full of sorrows.

Road To Recovery

I'm here to update again. Alot of things had happened the past 2 weeks.

First off, I would like to mention one of Warrant Officer who had died. Second Warrant Officer Lim Kian Hong, you will be missed. Rest in peace, Sir.
As part of your honourary farewell, I was in the firing squad to give you the 3 gun salute.

It was a rather unfortunate event.

Next, I fell sick soon after most probably because of the weather. I couldn't get a good night's sleep and I would feel miserably tired the following day. Last Friday was the last straw, I went to the polyclinic and asked the doctor for some sleeping medicine, which he can't prescribe because I have no history of insomnia. Whatever man!! haha.
He gave me an 'extra strong' flu pill instead to help with the drowsiness.

It worked but my whole body ached like mad on Saturday. Then just today, my Mom recommended me to call her masseuse to come to the house. Which I requested too this morning because I just couldn't endure the pain.

The massage was excruciating. Can you imagine a small, petite lady making me shriek out in pain out loud? I was really in pain, but as it went on, she had straightened out my nerves. I was okay soon after I got used to it, now my whole body is covered in the massage oil. She's good, honestly.

Now listening to Alesha Dixon - Breathe Slow
Nice song, I got the Cahill Club Mix and I'm hooked!

Tata for now!! Yiiipppyyyy!!!!!

Great Balls of Fire?

I need sleep, damn it. I slept only 3 hours last night coz I reached home at 5am. My sister woke me up at 9am to go for the parent-teacher meeting. Fugged tub.

Went to parkway parade to get a SuperexpensivehairCuts. SuperCuts lah. $31. wtf?
I kept falling asleep while the lady was tending to my hair.
And I went home, just as when I was about to doze into wonderland with no one else to disturb me, Mom called to ask me to pick up the car. GAHHHHH!!!!!! PISSED.

I dragged my heavy head, bathed again and got ready to go out feeling ever so pissed.

And when I don't have enough sleep, I'll be agitated. And don't ever nag at me when I'm agitated, I don't like it. And when I don't like it, I will not even sputter a word.

Okay, I'll go sleep now. I'll write about the somethings that happened last week. Alot of things happened. Damned week.

With Pride, We Lead, SISPEC!!!!

Both my arms are aching like mad!!!! My biceps and triceps feels so tight and tense!!!

Thanks to the 60 push-ups-without-muscle-conditioning done during IPPT training last Wednesday. Just to explain in a clearer point of view, my arms can't bend lesser than 90 degrees towards my shoulder. Its the lactic acid secreted in the muscles. I can't touch my face without guiding/forcing my arm to do so.

Now, a simple thing like taking off and putting on my uniform becomes a real chore. I can't tell the difference between grinning and groaning in pain when I'm brushing my teeth. Just now, I had Mingda unfold my uniform collar. I feel like a disabled person with the loss use of the upper limb. But, fortunately I can still type on the keyboard without much fuss.

And with doing duty yesterday, it didn't help much, I couldn't salute properly neither can I swing the truncheon.

This reminded me of my Basic Military Training and SISPEC days. Live to enjoy the pain. It makes us feel human and alive. Honestly, (secretly) I kinda like the pain I've been tortured with. Military training made me a sadistic bastard. Well, almost. Just that my pain tolerance is quite high. I'm not complaining, though my mom wanted me to go for a massage. The pain will go away eventually, but the feeling is up there! You know, there are people who thrive in the presence of adrenaline and lactic acid. That's me. =)

"We, ah, oh, ah, Infantry, yah!"
-SISPEC 45th BSLC Juliet Coy-

It's My Life, It's Now Or Never

I've been in a bad, bad mood recently. I noticed now, that everytime at this part of the year, I will feel very agitated, angry, easily getting annoyed or feel the need to be angry. Its part of the cycle.

During the months of September through December, I would feel rather happy. End of the year happiness but the blues of the early year. Oh, whatever.

I've been keeping to myself alot lately too. I just don't feel like socialising or whatever. I want time for myself. I find myself more towards an individualistic style of life. I like the freedom, not having to 'report' or 'check strength' to anyone at night before I sleep.

But life in this Army, is just too exhausted. Its 10pm and I gotta hit the bed soon but I still have things to prepare for the next 2 days, I have 24-hour duty tomorrow and will not be home and continue till friday.

This afternoon's IPPT training was okay, since it was raining. We couldn't get to time our run but we did statics under the training shed instead. The usual routine of push-ups,crunches, bridges, silent jumping jacks etc. Everyone do it without counting out loud, so it means we have to count on our own. Several restarts if anyone does not stop together.

My arms feel so sore, I have trouble lifting up my bag without saying, 'Aiyahhh....'
Si bei shag lor. But what to do? Lan lan suck thumb la boy! Got people rank higher one. Haiyahhhhhhh.