Thursday, July 31, 2008

Choices & Decisions

I told you we sure kena NDP sai kang.

We're having some parade in camp and we'll have to put up flags up at lamp posts and do some fancy decoration. I formerly name my squad, 'The Condemned Squad'.

However, we are entitled to not run the 16km training run at East Coast Park in the afternoon. woohooo!!! *celebration dance*

In exchange of doing some off-duty work.

Anyway, I was thinking earlier on in the day.

Which kind of career would you pick your spouse from?

My personal choices are:
1) Doctor
2) Nurse
3) Teacher
4) Designer (on the contrary.) -__-
5) Singer

Doctor. For obvious reasons, they can take care of me when I'm sick. Medical benefits unless she's working for gynae department which I can't really benefit from. *duh-uh*

Nurse. The best of all worlds. Same reason as above. If any better, she's a Staff Nurse.

Teacher. Able to teach the kids and for the kids to boast, "My mummy is a teacher!".

Designer. Simply put; she's able to design that dream house.

Singer. Able to sing me and the children to sleep. Abit straightforward but I like it when people sing me to sleep. My mum used to sing me to sleep when I was a baby. There was this song I remembered vividly even though I was around kindergarten 1. Now, big baby liao so must sing like Ayumi Hamasaki.

Pretty one-sided affair huh?
But that's just me.


So, we have the wants and now, we have the dont's.

Which kind of career would you not pick a spouse from?

1) Lawyer
2) Accountants / Cashiers
3) Wrestlers / Bodybuilders
4) Pornstars
5) Policewomen

Lawyer. She studied law, she practices law, she knows the law. She is the law.

Accountants / Cashiers. Every expense is accounted for. She leaves little room for discrepancies which makes buying that sports car or bike a little bit more elusive.

Wrestlers / Bodybuilders. Self-explanatory. No fights allowed in the house unless she has some strength-limiting device like those speed-limiters they install in cars.

Pornstars. I don't want to meet a stranger on the streets and he starts saying, "Eh, is that your wife? Familiar face ah?!........."

Policewomen. Same as lawyer except she's the weapon of the law. I don't want to be caught with my pants down.
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I do not have any prejudices against the above-abovementioned. Just giving it my one-cents worth. However, I have this strong feeling that my spouse would be a designer.
GWAHHAHAHAHA! Just a feeling. Sixth sense. Unless I want to make it happen. I so love a Japanese-themed house!

Mmmmmmmmmmmmmm............

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Guns Of The Patriots

I am seriously exhausted.

But I love my country. I am a patriot you see.

About the mobilisation thing, its where you'll see a green guy flashing on your TV screens and hear on the radio with 4 code words which correspond to the different units in the SAF. That signifies the time when the soldiers from the units report back to base within 2 hours.

I spent... no.

WE spent two 'meaningful' weekend days at home just waiting for someone to push the button to activate the units.

Life is never easy for a combatant. NEVER. We got used to words like, 'lan lan, suck thumb' , 'sai kang' and 'what's your rank soldier?!'.

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I, am a Specialist in the Singapore Armed Forces.
With pride, I lead.
I excel in my field, ensure the discipline of my men,
and their mission readiness.
I overcome adversity with my fighting spirit.
I, will defend Singapore, WITH MY LIFE!!!

'The Specialist Creed'
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From what I feel, Specialists are as capable as officers. There's no doubt about it. You don't have to be a genius to hold a pen and paper but it certainly takes skill and courage to wield a weapon and fight.

Specialists are the glue of any combat company. We are the bond between officers and men. At all times, we are to uphold our conduct and discipline but at the same time be close to our men and still maintain respect as their section commander.

Do you think its an easy job?
The pay doesn't justify for the job we are doing.

*shrugs off and sigh*
Its just another hard day at work.

I always remind myself.

"Rank is what you wear.
Appointment is what you hold.
Respect is what you earn."

Sunday, July 27, 2008

Just For Laughs

I was looking through the pictures that were on my external hard drives.

Old pictures dating back since Secondary 3, my polytechnic days, research materials to secondary school girl crushes. But what tickles me the most is a string of pictures labeled "Ah Guas" tucked away in the Pictures folder.

NOTE: This post is a 'bo liao' post because I've got nothing to do on a weekend that's meant for me to wait for mobilisation. More about mobilisation in the next post. Apart from that, I cannot guarantee the authenticity of the pictures posted below. Any inconveniences caused is terribly regretted. And lastly, I do not encourage or condone any acts of the abovementioned.
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Japan

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Korea

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Thailand

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Singapore

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China


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Thursday, July 24, 2008

Down Under

I'm having a flu and a slight fever.

I so don't feel like going work tomorrow. Do I look like I have a choice?

ねむいよ。じゃ、おやすみな。

Monday, July 21, 2008

My Finger

I'm tired.

Its only been 2 days but it felt like 2 years. Doing duty on a weekend is pure energy-draining. I've sustained a gash on my right hand at the last finger. I could see my flesh! That's disgusting. My buddy went like, "Eh dude, you ok or not? can or not?".

I told him, "Eh dude, my finger lah. Don't worry. It's all good."

But in actual fact it was painful. I could see a few epithelial layers were peeled off from my skin. I washed it and applied antiseptic cream and put on a bandage plaster.

But seriously, I feel very lethargic. I've got almost no energy left. I feel like lying down and just sleep the night away.

For 48 hours, I wore,
1 pair of no. 4 uniform
1 pair of briefs
1 pair of boots
1 pair of socks
1 brown admin shirt
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To add to the list, I forgot to bring my toiletries. Suck thumb, go home with the current condition. It was nothing new really as were my SISPEC days.

5 days without bathing, brushing teeth and clean toilets.

Like what they always say, "SAF TOILETS ARE EVERYWHERE IN GREENLAND!!"

Greenland = Jungle or forest or any land that is green.
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When will this end?!!!!
11 more months to Operationally-Ready Date!
and back to school.
i'm going to Nanyang Technological University. =)

Thursday, July 17, 2008

Work Hard, Sleep Harder! (FOR INFANTRY SOLDIERS ONLY)

It's coming to the end of the month, I have to literally lock myself away from the computer. As bad as it is, sometimes I don't even feel like switching on the computer much less looking at the unreplied messages on my phone.

I just feel like...... SLEEPING, EVERYDAY.

Some brigade turning to ops phase at the end of the month. More duties.
Haven't finish this job, another one starting. Life is very erratic and I admit I look like a person who only sleeps 4 hours a day; everyday.

All that '7 hours of sleep' question they ask everyday before physical activity?
Where got such thing as 7 hours of sleep in the Army?!

I cannot rest well till end of August, when the AHM is done too. If never train for the run, sign 3 extra duties everytime. So, you could say we are running for our weekend freedom.

Guard duty this coming Sunday.

i
am
so
exhausted.

HELP!!!

Sunday, July 13, 2008

Thank You

Mariah Carey - Thank God I Found You
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I would give up everything
Before I'd separate myself from you
After so much suffering
I finally found unvarnished truth
I was all by myself
For the longest time
So cold inside
And the hurt from the heartache
Would not subside
I felt like dying
Until you saved my life

Thank God I found you
I was lost without you
My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
Cause baby, I'm so thankful
I found you

I would give you everything
There's nothing in this world
I wouldn't do
To ensure your happiness
I'll cherish every part of you
Cause without you beside me
I can't survive
I don't want to try
If you're keeping me warm
Each and every night
I'll be alright
Cause I need you in my life

Thank God I found you
I was lost without you
My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
Cause baby, I'm so thankful
I found you

See, I was so desolate
Before you came to me
Looking back I guess
It shows that we were
Destined to shine
After the rain
To appreciate
The gift of what we have
And I'd go through it all over again
To be able to feel this way

Thank God I found you
I was lost without you
My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
Cause baby, I'm so thankful
I found you

Thank God I found you
I was lost without you
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
Cause baby I'm so thankful
I found you
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Thank God I Found You - Mariah Carey

Saturday, July 12, 2008

A Divided Addition Plus The Minus

As I precariously entered her house, I gave Melanie the bouquet of tulips I bought back at the florist in the nearby town center. She seemed to be shimmering in the moonlight beckoning me into her abode.

"Mel, what's for dinner? I'm starved." I asked nonchalently.

She didn't reply me as she put the flowers down by the armchair. Instead, she went up to me and hugged me.

"I missed you.... so much...." she cried while softly beating me with a loosely-clenched fist.

"Mel, come on, don't cry okay? Everything's okay now. We'll talk over dinner okay?" I tried my best to calm her down while wiping her tears from her delicate cheeks.

Melanie was clad in the silver DKNY evening dress that I bought for her during our 5th month anniversary. I couldn't have much thought of buying it because it looked so good on her back then. I think she had gained some weight especially on her tummy but I didn't want mention anything about it.

She was on the emotional side of a woman's world that men like me couldn't understand. She had a rather unfavourable vice that I had disliked; she always keeps quiet about problems that she had. She bottles it up and the pressure just keeps on piling. Its like you take a Coke bottle and shake it vigourously and when you pop it open, it explodes with power. I didn't like that in a girl.

Over dinner, Melanie had cooked my favourite dish, grilled salmon. Along with Chablis white wine from France. She relented to give me apple juice instead. She wasn't the cheerful girl I've come to know throughout our 2 years of courtship. Melanie's expression looked gloomy.

"Mel, it was nice of you to invite me over for dinner, since your parents are away I could stay up quite late. Tell me..... Is something bothering you?", I said breaking the ice first.

Melanie didn't reply.

She snuggled up next to me on the couch with her head resting against my body. I had my arm over her shoulders. As she flicked through the cable channels, I asked in a more subtle manner.

"So how's school been going? You met new friends in your class?"

Still, no reply.

Again, I tried asking, "Melanie.... let's have dessert while we're watching TV. Okay dear?"

It doesn't make any sense at all really. She turned to me and smiled delightfully, "Sure! I'll go get some from the freezer. Wait a minute okay darling?"

Like I said, "emotionally confusing".

It is as if our relationship was still going. Its as if we didn't broke up. She came back to the couch with some chocolates. These were the same heart-shaped chocolates she got for me on our 1st month anniversary. On the chocolates, there were engraved words like 'Forever', 'I Love You', 'Always' etc.

And she fed me one.

"Zaini, I've got something to tell you. Its very important.", she said in a firm tone.

"Yes?" I answered.

"I'm missing my period for about 2 months now. I think I'm pregnant."

My mind went completely numb.
"Are you SURE!? Did you check with the doctor?" I hastily replied.

"No. Not yet." she figured.
"If I am pregnant, will you marry me then?", Melanie continued.

I couldn't believe what I was hearing. She had stunned me with her nonchalent attitude and now this!
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okay, maybe i'll continue this some other time. i've got some work to do.

Friday, July 11, 2008

A Designer's Bad Side

Poster design haven't finish. LIAO.

I have 3 confirmed designs out of 6. I need to submit by 11am.

Forget it. I'm losing sleep because of this.

Screw it. I'm going to sleep.

And sign 21 extra duties. Twenty-one.

Do extra duty until ORD loh!!!

I'm not cut out for design. Honestly.

And I got a 16km run in the afternoon with only 4 hours of sleep. BO SWEE LEH. JIA LAT LIAO.

Monday, July 07, 2008

Ruzaini, The Designer

Okay, today I will finally admit that I am a designer.

We had an ExCo (Executive Committee), name sounds good but its actually 'kena arrow', meeting for the upcoming Racial Harmony Day. Thank God I'm not involved in the NDP this year. I'll be super busy for this month and the next due to do Mobilisation Manning at end of July and Racial Harmony Day on the 18th. For August would be some NDP 'sai kang' and the 21km Army Half-Marathon run on the 24th. In September, puasa month will kick in.

Together with my colleague, we're in charge of planning, organising and executing the events for the Malay side. Currently, we have a wedding-play, silat martial arts showcase and some performace by a 'kompang' group.


BSM: Ruzaini is a designer right? Very good designer right? What diploma did you take in Poly?
Me: Erm, I took an I.T diploma ah Sir. Mobile & Wireless Computing.
BSM: Ah, OK lah, same also what.
The Rest: Khe khe khe khe khe. (chuckling)
Me: Liao, liao, liao, liao, liao. Ho say.
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I wasn't hit by an arrow. I was hit by a sniper rifle instead, right between the eyes.

Why art again? Why?!

Furthermore, me and Thomas have to finalise the 3 posters by end of the week!
That's not all, I still need to find some musical score that I need to give Thomas so he could play it on his Chinese instrument. If only they let me play with the synthesizer, that would be cheating. =P

I'm just tired that I just don't feel like going out. I just want to have a good, long rest; how about say a month??! When I get out of my uniform, my energy just dissipates. I switch on my air-con and fan. Lie down on the fluffy bed. KNOCKED OUT. Happened to me quite often.

Then, I got to sleep soon. my bed is calling. I hate Mondays because its the starting of the week.

Ja, oyasumi na!

Saturday, July 05, 2008

Band Of Brothers

I spent a good portion of the day sleeping.

After yesterday's 14km run at East Coast Park, I took a taxi back home. The thing about running is, once its past the 10km mark, everything just seems so far away. I have mixed feelings about running that far for that matter.

I watched the midnight movie, Hancock, at Tampines GV with Ben, Hadi and Yasser. A nice movie too.

After the movie, we took a cab down to Simpang Bedok to get some food in our stomachs. And after that, we played DOTA at the nearby LAN gaming shop at 2am!!

It has been quite a while since I last played DOTA. The game I badly sucked in my history of gaming.

Another friend joined in the fray, we called him Bird. hahah!

Can you imagine after a day of physical activity. I felt numb. I fell asleep on several occasions when the battle gets boring. We played till daylight at 8am.

I think its more tiring than field camp!
I'm going to back to sleep now. Thanks!

Thursday, July 03, 2008

To A Very Special Lady, With Love

If i could say something to you. It would be.....


Dear ______, you are the most special person in my world. You have given me happiness that I could never have imagined. Without you, my life would be meaningless. I want you to know that there's nothing in this world I wouldn't give up just to be with you. Everyday, I look forward to your sweet voice, your sweet smile and your sweet smell in the morning. ______, I will cherish you for as long as i live.

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Doy by Kangen Band
Coba kau pikirkan, coba kau renungkan
Apa yang kau inginkan telah aku lakukan
Coba kau pikirkan coba kau renungkan
Tanya bintang-bintang hanya kaulah yang ku sayang

Coba kau katakan apa yang kau inginkan
Apa yang kau butuhkan telah aku berikan
Coba kau katakan apa yang kau inginkan

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Anyway, something random that happened to me while on the way home from work.
I was in military uniform wearing a jockey cap. I was walking down the slope down by my block when this small girl in K1 or K2, she went up to me and said, "Hello!!" enthusiastically. I smiled and replied "Hello!" back. The little girl seemed excited to see me for some reason. Such a cutie, ahhh, I want a daughter.....

Talk about charms, sheesh!

The other day, I asked one of the juniors. I joked, "Hey, can I be your boyfriend?"

and she said, "You? my boyfriend?... NO! you're not boyfriend material, you're more husband material. If you had asked me to marry you, I'd be damn happy to be married to you."

Now what's that supposed to mean?! I'm not complaining.
She added, "Actually, I think you'd have problems finding girlfriends, but I think you'll have lots of wives."

One is enough, please. =)
Anyway, I've thought of a name. ummm, wanna hear?
Siti Nur Alyssa Binte Md Ruzaini
Modern name too. i like it.

Or or or or!

watashi no tsuma ni nihonjin. watashi no musume no namae wa
Nur Shahidah Tomoko Binte Md Ruzaini
Siti Sakura Shahidah Binte Md Ruzaini; "S cube."

It sounds weird with the japanese combination. I'll let my missus choose so long its meaningful.

Time check, 12:55am. I've gotta wake up at 5am man. There's a point in time during NS, when you've not had enough sleep, and you think, SCREW IT, its Friday, I can sleep on Saturday.

14km training run at East Coast Park! ganbatte ne! its tiring, i can tell you that. i'm a long distance runner by the way.

Good Night!

Tuesday, July 01, 2008

No Time!

hello. yes, i'm still alive. i just don't have time for my computer much less for myself!

gahhhh!!! i'm going mad. too much work to do, so little time. anybody can help me do up 3 A2-size posters?

time to get back to designing posters. yet again, we 'kena arrow'.

in the Army i realised, when we are not doing physical training, we will always be doing 'sai kang'; therefore the term 'sai kang warriors'.

SKW: Sai Kang Warriors
ROC: Relax One Corner
CKK: Chao Keng King
SK: Sabo King
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do wrong thing must kena punish, if kena punish must sign extra duty; tio bo? -HQ CSM-

i've yet to serve my 2 extra duties. 2 weekends gone. just...like...that...

my mind's in a mess right now. i'd guess my room reflects of my mind. its like a warzone. Racial Harmony Day coming up with CO evening.

AHM training's getting crazy. now we've to run at East Coast Park every Friday. my timing for 12km run is 1 hour and 20 minutes which is SLOW! and why? because i came in with one of the last few. next training will be 14km which i intend to clock at around 1 hour and 15 minutes.

that's in a nutshell, i've to go sleep now. i only clocked 3 hours of sleep last night and it looks like i'm going to clock only 4 more hours tonight.

i love you baby. =)
oyasumi.